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Tuesday, September 03, 2013

I've missed it. I've missed it to the point of taking a vacation day from work and throwing myself head-first into the swanky weeds and chigger-infested grass and breathing in the woodsy air around me. I actually hugged a tree too. Sniffed it. Felt it. Took off my shoes and felt the blades of grass between my toes. The weather was just right. High seventies. Low eighties in the sun. I busted loose a few times on the rolling hills around me. I ran down them, heaved up them, sat on them and stared out into the distance. Contemplated. Meditated. Lied down in the tall grass. Checked my hair for bugs. Then did it all over again.

I allowed my mind to wander. Not about anything of importance. Bills and work were the farthest thing from my mind. No, I wondered about how the earth and sun have managed to be in sync for all of these thousands of years without one single little hiccup. I wondered how our bodies, so intricately-made, can withstand the torrent of abuse we put them through then seemingly rebound when given the right food and exercise. Looking up into the sky, I realized it's just how God rolls. It's how God keeps everything in line so that we may given the gift of yet another beautiful day. But then my mind wandered to the presence of God. How am I so sure that He exists? It was then I caught myself laughing quietly...oh dear. All I have to do is look around me. Into the faces of my children and grandchildren to see Him. All I have to do is look within my own heart...then I know. I know He is there.

There is a peace in that, ya know. Knowing that no matter what kind of "trouble" we get ourselves into, no matter if our health throws a kink in our noodles or we get our attitudes in a wad, He is there to shine some light within our souls. He is that Voice of Reason. That Little Whisper that says, "Everything is going to be alright."

In the middle of one of my deepest thoughts, I looked over and saw this scene. There is a little dog on top of his little house and he never barked. He just looked at me and tilted his little head from side-to-side. Neither of us moved for what seemed like an eternity. I didn't feel threatened. He didn't feel threatened. We just sort of co-existed in this little time span of unity. Then I thought, "Wouldn't it be cool if we could all co-exist like this on this planet??" No worries of war. No worries of bullying. No worries of chemical warfare. Wouldn't it be cool if we could accept each other for who we, they, are and have mutual respect for each other's well-being? And not fear? Nothing?

But we do. We also fear being alone. I know that is one of MY greatest fears. It has hit me hard since my children left, trying to redefine myself, to find what makes me "ME." Seriously, what makes me tick?? What makes us all tick?? What is that driving force that keeps us getting up day-after-day-after-day? It's different for everybody. It is their careers, their families, their hobbies, their dreams. I have found since my children left home I've thought more about my health...I really need to do better. I need to do alot better. And I have so much more I want to do...there are so many people I want to meet. There is so much more I want to see. There are so many more hills to climb...

...and the awesome thing about that is, I know God is with me every step of the way. He is with me as I begin my next journey. My next chapter in life. The neat thing about chapters are, they can be as long or as short as you want them to be and there's always one after it. You can write as much as you want and fluff it up as much as you want. And you can write your life story from the perspective that you want, too. You don't have to make it dreary or hopeless. You can make it challenging and exciting. Shoot, depending on the adjectives, you can make peeling potatoes as exciting as climbing Mount Everest or racing in the Indy 500. It's all in the way YOU write it. It's all in the way YOU LIVE IT.

Live out loud, to the very fullest, my friends.

God bless. You are loved.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
GREGGWEISBROD 11/18/2013 10:06PM

    I cheated and read this before catching up, lol. I'm glad I did though, it really spoke to me. When I was 17, and my life was empty and darkness filled my every waking thought, one summer night as I lay awake in bed at 4 in the morning - sad about life and pondering the meaninglessness of it all - my eyes caught the stars in the sky. So beautiful. So perfect. My atheist mind cracked a little that night, and I began to see more than science behind the beauties of this world, and a soul inspiring joy crept in and began to light up the darkest corners of my heart. I spoke to God that night for the first time in my life... and every moment that's followed has been one long roller coaster of experiences that I feel blessed to be able to call 'my story'. Everything you write is of such deep and sincere value. Really amazing. Hope your week is off to an amazing start!! :-D

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JADOMB 9/15/2013 2:14PM

    Great blog and I'm right there with you sister. I know you love to write, but have you written a book yet? You really should, you a have great talent for it.

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SHARON10002 9/8/2013 9:13PM

    This is the you I remember and love to read! You are finding "her" again, and I am so very glad!

Well said, Michelle. I totally agree with what you've said here. God is indeed in all of the details down to the very minutest one, and he doesn't miss a single breath or beat because it is all indeed perfect from the very beginning - as it should be.

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KAILYNSTAR 9/5/2013 5:32PM

    Loud and proud. You betcha!

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KONRAD695 9/5/2013 3:29PM

    I'll do just that. Thank you for another wonderful piece. emoticon

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TINY67 9/5/2013 11:24AM

    Sounds like you had a great day.

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SNOW_LEOPARD_74 9/4/2013 10:15PM

    Sounds and looks like a beautiful day!!

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AJDOVER1 9/4/2013 10:09AM

    It's always so good to see you and read your words! Thanks so much!

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GOANNA2 9/4/2013 8:37AM

    Thank you I needed this today. I went to
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meditate and make sense of it all.

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NISSANGIRL 9/4/2013 7:13AM

    Thanks for sharing this! sounds like u had a wonderful day!!! and u are good with your words!!! Great blog! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TERRY0217 9/4/2013 6:41AM

    Isn't it great just to get away from it all and get back to nature (and, it's extra special when you take a day off from work...Those are my favorite days) we're so busy with our everyday lives, that, we forget about the beauty and peace the good Lord gives us..
So glad you had a great day!

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REGILIEH 9/4/2013 6:33AM

    This is so beautifully written! You have such a talent with words. Thank you for sharing your writing and your thoughts with us.

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You are a gift, a blessing.

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LOVINGAFRICA 9/4/2013 5:56AM

    Love your blogs! Thank you!

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    That voice of reason... the one that re-assures us YES everything will be ok has been what kept me going the past 6 months... Have a fabulous day!

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KING_SLAYER 9/4/2013 12:21AM

    When I looked at that first picture, all I could think was "those legs go all the way up". Yes, I do think there's something wrong with me.

I too hear that quiet voice that says "everything's going to be alright", of course I then hear quiet snickering.

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FLEMIDG 9/3/2013 11:13PM

    We are indeed loved. God bless you. Beautiful blog. Hope you're having a wonderful week.


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WALLAHALLA 9/3/2013 9:51PM

    What a lovely day!

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