Tuesday, September 03, 2013
Husband and I talked last night. Although we both felt kind of raw afterwards, we resolved things before going to bed. I'm so grateful for that. We almost never argue, so it's terribly upsetting to me when we do, especially when he feels that I've hurt him or upset him. It's not an easy thing to hear, or to deal with, and I can be defensive. He admitted that he did kind of go off the deep end a bit, and didn't make a very good decision about letting her go out. In fact, he even cracked a [fairly decent] joke about it tonight. So all is well in that department.
My favorite cat has been missing since yesterday. Don't tell the others, but he really is my favorite. He won't come when I call him and he hasn't been home in over 24 hours. He has NEVER ONCE not come home when I call him. I have cried about three times this evening since I got home from work.
Because of these stressors, I tossed and turned and finally fell asleep around 1:00 this morning. Then I woke up at 4:00 to use the bathroom and couldn't get back to sleep. I get up at 6:00 to get Daughter ready for school, and to get myself ready for work. I didn't have to go in today until 9:00, as we had our Open House tonight from 4:00-6:00. I am so tired! I'm going to get my jammies on and crawl into bed. I'm feeling very drained right now.
I feel like I've done pretty well on my eating today. Could have been better, but it's an improvement over what it's been, that's for sure. I'm getting there. Not as fast or as strong as I'd like, but I'm getting there. Going to start going to the gym again, too...just not sure when. I've been feeling little bits of hope creeping back in the past couple of days. I'm not sure where it's coming from, but I'm starting to believe in myself again, little by little.