Tuesday, September 03, 2013
I haven't blogged regularly because I have no idea what the hell is going on! And I have been unable to reach my dietician, but I will keep trying.
It is like my nightmare is coming true- and I know this is irrational but what else am I to think?
So what is going on?? Since I weighed in last 8/27, eight days ago- I have gained 3.8 pounds- who the hell eats 2 oz of food per meal, counts calories (under 1000), drinks a lot of fluids and GAINS weight. ME! It is a nightmare! Ahhhhhh!!!
Since my dietician is not getting back to me, I am left to do some research on my own and here is what I am finding. It is possible that I am not eating enough. I have consulted with other post op patients and it could be that I am not eating enough food and putting my body into starvation mode- so my body is freaking out and storing fat. That does make sense, so I have been trying to eat more-- and it just leaves me feeling ill and at times I have tossed my cookies because it is just too much. I just can't seem to get into a rhythm of this new life style. But I will.
I also am struggling with the fluid intake. I can't drink for 30 minutes after I eat, and I can't drink when I eat-- so for 3-4 hours out of my day I can not sip. This makes it all difficult BUT I have to do better at this. I have to get in all 64 oz. I thought it would be easier by now, but it is not. I will keep at it!
I don't want to be negative with all my blogs... so I have been holding off hoping for a drop. But it isn't happening. The weight is just not coming off, and the recent gain (and maintain) is just so discouragingly UNREAL.
I will not say I regret having the surgery because it is too early to make such a judgement and I am not going to give up only 7 weeks into this. I am going to just keep at it- I have to! I hope to get in touch with the dietician soon, my group meeting is in a couple of week so I will get help then.
Every day I will try my best to do all the right things. I have decided to go back to the shakes and to stick with what I know works and not introduce anything new until I lose again. I am committed to drink MORE fluids and keep up with the walking. I have decided to BELIEVE that the scale WILL MOVE in the right direction soon!