Tuesday, September 03, 2013
Severe paranoia x2 that only sleep cured, x1 that a movie took care of. Evil movie with demons. Christian music no effect anymore; makes it worse. Even more worried about my spiritual life now. I knew I was not living a righteous life, far from Christ. When I was close to Jesus between 2005-2008, evil movies used to upset me (on FIRE for Jesus); then in 2009 -2012 was immune to them, not caring it I watched or not; (Lukewarm). smoked, smoked, and drank and now evil movies are helping ?(COLD - MAYBE there's a tiny, little ember barely glowing, suffocating, almost out) That's not good at all, I need Jesus. I need a REAL spiritual awakening WITH JESUS, not some Higher Power. I'm desperate for Him. Lord, I'm desperate for you. I'm beyond thirsty, I'm dying of thirst. Please help me. Where is the Living Water? What must i do to be saved?
Confess the Lord Jesus with your mouth and believe in your heart God raised him from the dead, and you shall be saved! Romans 10:9
Jesus Christ is Lord and I believe it and confess Him. I believe in my heart that God has raised Him from the dead and that He now lives and wants to make His abode in me!