Day 13 of Insanity!
Tuesday, September 03, 2013
Today is Day 13 of Insanity! Tomorrow is a rest day, and then I take my fit test!!!
I don’t really feel good about taking the rest day tomorrow. I don’t think I’ve really earned it. Between not doing the yoga workout on Sunday (I was at the beach all day – still active, but doesn’t feel right) and this morning I was supposed to do Pure Cardio and Cardio Abs – it was my very first time doing Cardio Abs and I was really looking forward to it.
I had decided last night that I would just focus on Cardio Abs this morning and then do part of Pure Cardio until I run out of time before work and need to hop in the shower. But I really didn’t like the Cardio Ab video, which was really, really disappointing because I was so looking forward to doing it. So now I’m not entirely sure what to do about it, maybe switch it out with a P90X ab workout? Or just do it for the month and plow through it. One reason I didn’t like it was because some of the moves made my hip pop (weird thing, don’t know why it does it, but it causes no pain but I still prefer not to do it because it’s not “normal”) and another reason was because some of the moves were pure jumping straight up and lifting your legs and landing hard on the floor, which I refuse to do because I don’t want a knee injury. That one I modified so that I was standing and crunching, but it just wasn’t any fun and all the other videos are fun for me. I guess I’ll just see how my abs feel tomorrow and if I don’t feel any soreness or like they were worked (which they don’t right now) I’ll need to make some changes. The ab workout is very important to me, I want to make sure that I’m getting a good workout in. On top of the disappointing ab workout – I didn’t end up doing any of the Pure Cardio workout! UGH! I got up too late! Tonight is my night to cook and I said I would have dinner ready at 6:30 and I’m expected to eat with the family so I think I’ll just eat a super light dinner and hopefully around 8 I’ll be able to do the Pure Cardio workout. I really don’t want to skip it – tomorrow is a rest day and I just don’t feel like I got a good workout in today.
I’m really looking forward to the fit test to see what improvements I’ve made, but I’m really NOT looking forward to the measurements and scale. My clothes don’t feel any looser and I don’t know if I’ll see a scale move. Part of me wishes I could skip that part, but I really want a record of my progress. It’s too bad I can’t have someone record it for me and me not have to see the numbers! Not an option right now. I’ll just keep reminding myself that it’s a long journey, and just exercising and eating better is making me healthier, whether or not I see progress in just 2 little weeks. I’ve had almost 27 years of making this body I have now, and 2 weeks aren’t long enough to undo 27 years (or several years of treating it like crap).
I’ve noticed that since I’ve been consciously trying to eat healthier and listen to my body… that most of the people around me eat crap. And they are all thinner than me! Not sure what’s going on with that. This morning my friend told me that she brought in snicker doodles and I said no thank you, and she did the sad face and asked me to eat just a little one because she made them. I still said no thank you because I just didn’t want one, but I was annoyed that I had to explain myself. Later she wanted a milkshake and I said no thank you, but I went with her to get one and just didn’t get one for myself. Everywhere around me people are eating things that they made a deal out of it if you don’t eat it, and I find myself getting defensive about it. When someone says to me that they don’t want something I don’t do sad faces, or get pushy, or try to convince them to eat something – I just accept that they don’t want to eat it, no matter the reason. They don’t want it then they don’t want it, whether it’s because they are trying to eat better or just don’t like whatever type of food it is. I know that a large part of it is that others are trying to make themselves feel better about eating the food so they try to get others to eat it as well to ease their own guilt, but I just get annoyed and defensive. I shouldn’t have to defend why I don’t want to eat something – it shouldn’t matter if it’s because I’m trying to eat better, or because I’m not hungry, or because I don’t like the food – my answer is no either way. I’m at the point where I get annoyed at the sad faces and the “come ooooon’s” I’m dealing with it on a case by case basis, but I just felt like complaining about it, lol.
Hope you’re all having a Sparktastic Day!!