Tuesday, September 03, 2013
FYI - Some men might find this entry to contain "too much information." I think most ladies will be able to handle it.
I had forgotten what this feels like! I woke up today with what can only be described as Incredible Energy! I used to feel like this on a fairly regular basis, but over the last few years I could tell my default energy level was lower than it once was. I attributed this to settling down, working a desk job, no longer being a college kid, etc. I found that I more observed the change in my energy rather than held any opinion on it or tried to change it.
And then, today, BOOM! The energy is back! I woke up, popped out of bed after only 6 hours of sleep, practically dragged my dog out for his morning walk (he was still yawning and shaking the cobwebs out of his sleepy brain), even surprised my husband by being dressed for my morning workout before he was dressed for work. Usually, he gives me a "see you later" kiss while I'm still sitting in the bed in my pajamas! I had moved more than 9,000 steps before I even left the house between walking the dog and spending 45 minutes on the Gazelle. I sang along with the radio all the way to work, despite tons of traffic and possible irritants all around me. Energy, energy, energy!!
The more I think about this, the more convinced I become that birth control is not a good thing for me. I have elected to stop taking the pill after my husband and I talked it through and decided that we're pretty close to start trying to have a baby. This is my first week pill free and not on my period. I started to contemplate the last time I was not on birth control for an extended amount of time, and it was years ago. I do remember, though, that I was an early-riser, extremely energetic, generally happy (not just positive, but happy!) and usually caffeine-free.
Robin Williams said, when he was interviewed for Inside the Actors' Studio, that the main reason he was glad to end his cocaine use was, "It slowed me down." I'm starting to think that these years I have spent on birth control pills we much of the same - they slowed me down! What could I have accomplished if I hadn't be so concerned about taking the pill?
I don't have any regret associated with taking the pill. There are health benefits beyond just not getting pregnant, and I did successfully stay offspring-free on my own terms. I just wonder what the alternative might have looked like.
I'm very interested to see how my mood and energy go over these next several BC-free months. Hopefully, everything will be back to my old normal, where everyday was filled with my own incredible energy!