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Day one, Doing this for me... getting heathly and strong and dealing with life

Tuesday, September 03, 2013

I am counting my blessings today

When dad passed away in July I got off track - I have no idea what day I am on - I just know I am struggling to get back on track with consistent exercise (30 - 60 mins a day), better sleep, sticking to my kidney friendly diet and pushing my water.

So I am trying to regain my focus - I am DOING this for me! I want to look strong and healthy, I want to feel strong and healthy, I want to be able to move better. I want to reach my goal of losing 50 pounds for me! When I graduate next May - I want to be fit and look it! I want people to look at me and KNOW that I work out.

So today I start my counting days again. Today is day 1!

Dad would not want me to let my grief over take me, he would want me to carry on and live life. I still have my gut-retching moments - I still pick up the phone to call him, I still think, "oh, I have to call dad and tell him..." and then I remember, he is gone! He was my supporter in everything I did. I did not get much support from my mom, it is just the way it is for me. She is still my mom and I love and respect her for that. But dad. I was the apple of his eye, I was his girl, he believed in me.

Even though I had three brothers - it was dad and I who built decks, worked on roofs, painted,ect. I remember going to work with him as a kid. Yes, I miss him! I miss his very essence in my life. His 10 phone calls in a day, him calling at 3 am and asking "are you awake?" A few times I was not happy with him, as it was not an emergency (we had a few of those, so when the phone would ring....) - he just could not sleep!

My commitment is to get back on track with everyday exercise, drinking my water, and to get back on track with my healthy eating for my kidney health.

Thank you for your continued support and encouragement.
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    emoticon emoticon take it one da at the time Jean.
    1628 days ago
    I wanted to be like my dad so much I begged for a briefcase and a desk when I was a kid at every holiday for a couple years. I still treasure the little briefcase that i finally got. It holds all my dad momentos.
    1628 days ago
    So sorry Jean. You brought back memories of my dad and I got a few tears well up in my eyes. It sounds like we had the same Mom and Dad. I know exactly what you mean about picking up the phone or thinking I need to tell Dad that. My Dad died in 1999 and I still miss him. He was a little stubborn, but he was a good man, and I still miss him. Always keep your dad in your heart and he will always be with you.
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    1629 days ago
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    I'm so sorry for your loss emoticon emoticon
    1629 days ago
    So sorry for your loss. I lost my dad almost 2 years ago and think about him everyday. There are still days I want to call him, he was deaf and used the Relay system and I just can't bring myself to delete that number from my phone.

    Congrats on DAY 1! This is what he would want for you and your family.

    Keep up the good work and much success on your journey!

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    1629 days ago
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