Tuesday, September 03, 2013
I had a new experience with eating a meal.
The normal rate of my food intake since I was a child, had been to eat mouthful after mouthful, not taking my time, but taking another bite as soon as I swallow the first bite. Not putting my fork down, or laying the sandwich down between bites. I always finish my food before anyone else at the table. Especially lately when I eat even smaller portions. It doesnít take long to eat at all! But i remain hungry for another half hour after finishing, so I'm mostly tempted to keep eating. I have trained myself to stop because of calorie count, not because of feeling full.
I was, as a child, always rushing to clean my plate before my brothers. Mom and Dad at some point praised me for being the first one done. I continued to strive to be the first finished. I was always a people pleaser. Who doesnít like to hear praise from their parents?
Yesterday, without any pre-planning, I took the first bite and found myself noticing the moment when that first swallow entered my stomach. I didnít take another bite until I felt that actual moment. I thought maybe that is what Iím supposed to have been doing all along, though it never occurred to me. So I continued to eat my whole meal that way. It took much concentration.
My husband asked me if my food was too hot or if I was savoring my food. I said I was savoring it. He finished way before I did, which has never happened in 36 years of marriage. I actually had to stop eating before finishing. I was full!
Iím also a drink guzzler. (Water, milk, etc.) I am interested to see if I can slow myself down with drinking, too. I donít drink alcohol for this reason. I never paced myself and was a binge drinker.
I am interested in continuing to try to eat deliberately again. I forgot about it this morning until it was too late. But I want to try it over and over.
Another thing I want to mention . . . I made it through the long holiday weekend with hubby home and strange eating schedules, with no over-eating or binges!