In the crappy part of my pattern.
Monday, September 02, 2013
I've been stumbly ever since recovering from my nasty cold, and have fully fallen off the wagon over the past week. It started with a "rest day," then I didn't bother to track my eating that day. Next morning, I skipped breakfast since we were going to the fair, to "save up" my calories for all the junk we'd be eating there. Or something. Since then, I've deliberately been eating crappily. I did talk myself out of going to McDonald's yesterday, but stopped at Dunkin' Donuts about 10 minutes later since I was hungry. Still was somewhat of a win, since I don't have a 1200 calorie "favorite binge" at Dunk's.
I've been drinking my water! I've not tracked my food today. For each of the last 3 or so mornings, I've weighed in and have noted a gain. I've given myself a pep talk that I can make good choices today, I can get right back to tracking my food and all that, but then I don't bother. I'm very disappointed that I've let this happen! Then I'm aggravated that I'm not stopping myself, and so the cycle continues. Guilt and anger lead me to just feel bad, not want to do anything about it.
I did 10 minutes of exercise today, just so it wasn't nothing. I'm not giving up, but I am so annoyed with myself! Haha I need to reframe this thinking somehow, to work from a positive mindset would be much more helpful I think. Back to basics!