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Monday, September 02, 2013

I did something this week that I never thought I would...I admitted DEFEAT.

I am not disciplined enough to loose this weigh. Maybe I will just be the roly poly fat mom who smiles and rolls(literally) with the punches. Maybe I am the best I can be right now, maybe I'm better off focusing on the kids and helping make their dreams come true.

How did I let this happen to myself again. I sit here crying at my computer wondering what I have done and where to go now.

So here I am blogging, hoping that it will help me shed this feeling of despair, that make I will find a minuscule amount of pride in myself to try again.
How many time is too many times to try to loose weight? When do you throw in the towel an admit defeat? Is it OK to just be fat? Is it OK to make the choice to be unhealthy, to choose to die young, to be lazy, unhappy and depressed every time time I look in the mirror... to spend the rest of my life hiding from everyone, wearing men's clothing, sitting on the side lines watching life go by....

Advice, antidotes etc. would be appreciated
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    Don't give up! emoticon

    Your health is worth fighting for! emoticon

    You don't have to make super big changes to make a difference.
    Little changes will bring big results.

    I started doing Zumba when I was 250lbs and really out of shape,but I loved it so much that it encouraged me to start eating better to be able to Zumba better.
    I have been losing very slowly,sometimes even regaining a bit, but consistency brought a 65lbs lost.
    I am not at goal and God knows how long ill take to get there,but I can't give up!

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    1655 days ago
  • TAMARA7567
    My first thought for you is that if you are unhappy with the way you are currently, then it is never okay to admit defeat. I have struggled with my weight all my life and it took a lot for me to "hit bottom" and finally make the decision to improve my life. I have learned (much to my amazement) that eating more nutritiously and exercising make me feel so much better, that they are worth doing. If I happen to lose a little weight along the way, so much the better! I do struggle with the food planning and making myself exercise each day, but the best way to handle that is to set small goals and ease into the changes. Just having a quick breakfast every day is a big change for me, but it helps. Exercise-wise, I have committed to "at least" 10 minutes a day, even if it is just walking in place while I am folding laundry or watching TV. Every little bit adds up! Once the breakfast habit is in place, it will be easier to plan for the rest of the day. And I do find that once I get up for that first 10 minutes, most days, I keep going, or find some other way to add more activity into my daily routine, and I can feel the benefits immediately! My suggestion for you would be to try to focus on how you feel, not how much you weigh or how you look. If you keep doing things that make you feel good, you will have much more immediate feedback than if you are relying on a once-a-week weigh-in. I wish you much luck! You are worth it, and you can do it! emoticon
    1663 days ago
    I don't know how old your children are. My son is only 4 but my being fat and unhealthy prevents me from being a better, more attentive Mom to him. I don't know your whole situation, so I won't say that you're not having a hard time. Losing weight IS HARD. It's harder than anything I've ever done. But if I want to be around and be an awesome grandma, I HAVE TO. I see it as there is no other option. I have to learn to eat right for my body. And the same goes for you. You need to learn to eat right for your body. And there is never a too late to start over. I start over every day. I believe truthfully, we all do. And if we don't do well one day. We chalk it up to experience, and wake up tomorrow starting all over again. :) You're still here. You're still breathing. There's always hope and wonder when we have those two things. So, lace those shoes and make tomorrow you're new start over. That's what I'll be doing. :) Take care and be blessed.
    1663 days ago
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