Monday, September 02, 2013
I have been off of the site for a month. I went into a depression because I was overwhelmed. I am in the process of starting up a business and that requires me to have faith in myself which given my history is lacking. My only child moved just recently to Texas. Letting go has been quite a process and has made me look at a few things about myself. We have never been further than 10-15 min apart. He is 26. I think I am understanding the empty nest syndrome. This is good for him and good for me but a little scary as now I have just me to focus on.....deep breath.... I got complacent on this site and from doing that I realized I was giving up a large support system. Even though it is on-line for those that have reached out, it has meant the world to me. I thank you. I started counseling to deal with some PTSD issues. (diagnosed way before pubic awareness of this disorder.) Which I have rarely shared with anyone but is the basis of me more times than not following thru on what I start. I am scared. Now it is time for me to rebuild my support and focus on directly what is in front of me. Baby steps....I deserve a decent life and I want to pay it forward and share with others what I learn as I go. I have nothing to lose but the weight and my fears.