Despite an altercation with a gang of granola bars, I still saw a loss this morning. A pretty good one, matter of fact. 3.8 lbs. I know a lot of it was water weight, but I'm down to 268.2, so I'm under the 270 mark, which is cause for celebration! Weeee! I'm done with the 270s and am marching onward to battle with the 260s.
I woke up ready to take on the day. I am determined not to have anymore accidents with granola bars. I still lost, despite the granola bars, but I can't make that habit. Also, my blood sugar did not appreciate it!
And now, story time...
A big part of the reason I got back on track this time was looking at old photos. It was really hard to face the reality of what I have done to myself. I've never been skinny in my life. I was already chubby by kindergarten, and it just got worse as I got older. The skinniest I have ever been in my life was around 160 lbs, for my senior prom. I had lost 60 lbs over the course of my senior year.
Almost immediately after graduation, I started regaining weight. I left my hometown and went to the small city where dh lived. I spent the summer with him at his parents house. We ate boxes and boxes of macaroni and cheese, went to Chinese buffets, ate fast food, and so on. And no exercise.
By the start of college I had gained back maybe 15-20 lbs. Most of my clothes still fit, though. At the end of the semester, the same could not be said. I avoided the scale like it was poisonous, but my clothes no longer fit and I knew I had regained a significant amount of weight.
Over the next several years, I gained and gained, lost a few lbs, gained some more, and so on. A story many of you are familiar with, I am sure.
7 or 8 years ago, I got my behind in gear and lost 40 lbs. From 215 to 175. For some strange reason I don't have any pics of me at my lowest during that time, but this is a photo taken when I was around 190.
Following my usual pattern, I regained a lot of it. I worked retail and moved around a lot, so the gain wasn't as significant as it would have been if I had a sedentary job. My regain was slower than before, until I quit that job and started a sedentary job. This photo was around the end of my career in retail. I was around 215 in this pic. I know it's only my upper chest and head, but I don't have any full body pics around that time.
Once I left retail, everything went to hell in a hand basket. I consistently regained weight from the time I started there until I had gone from ~215 to 291 lbs. I had no idea I had gotten that big. I hadn't been on a scale in ages, and closed my eyes when they took my weight at the doctors office. At that point, though, my doctor made me face it. He told me I weighed 291 lbs and I had to get some of that off or it would kill me. This is the pic I have closest to my highest weight. I was probably around 285 here...
I was mortified when I saw that picture, and that kept me going for a while. I lost about 25 lbs. Then I stopped and regained about 5 lbs. I have been bouncing back and forth between 250 and 270 for a few years now. I just can't seem to keep my butt going long enough to get safely below the 250 mark.
This is me at 272 lbs...
As of this morning, I am down to 268.2. I am done with the 270s. I will not go back. I've gotten bad news about my health in the last week, and I know I have to take charge of it, or I won't live to see 40.
Anyway, that's my long story, if you made it to the end.
Have a great day, everyone!