Monday, September 02, 2013
Yesterday, after I wrote my poem about my being "on my way" and feeling wiser, I went to the mall with my hubby after a good lunch. There is a dessert that I've eyed up every time I go past a cookie shop. It's a red velvet brownie, cream cheese icing and all. I always told myself not to get it because once I tasted it, I'd be more likely to eat one again.
This time, before I even got into the mall, by calculating my calories for the day, I decided it was ok to get one. So I did. It was very delicious and the texture was perfect. I didn't regret it. It didn't make me crave more sugar, which is unusual. But, in three hours it was supper time. I felt exceedingly hungry by the time our meal was ready. I decided exactly how much I was going to eat. (because I knew if I didn't I'd overcompensate for being so hungry.) I stuck to it.
For four hours following dinner, I felt shaky and edgy. I blame it on the sugar overload I had earlier. I did not like the feeling at all. In the past, this feeling would drive me to eat, maybe even binge! I didn't do either. I poured myself iced coffee with cream, and sat and tried to watch tv with hubby. The only thing that seem to help was distracting myself by scanning through Pinterest. I'm sure it was reaction to sugar, since I hardly eat it anymore. If I do, it is in quite limited amounts.
I didn't eat more. That's a good thing. I also feel like I learned my lesson. Do I really want to do that again? Does the four hour sugar reaction pale in comparison to the few minutes I enjoyed the brownie? I think not.
I hope in the future I will recall this event and be wise in my next decision about this or another sugary choice. To top it off, I'm cranky today. So it is probably more than a four hour reaction. I hope I've really learned my lesson. Sure, I stayed in calorie range, but those empty calories could have been more wisely spent!
I'm reseting my brain. Refreshing in my mind the commitments I've made to myself to eat at the low end of my calorie range, and to keep myself free from binges. I can do it!