To save my blog before posting it. I had just finished it, only to discover my session has timed out.
AND LOSE THE ENTIRE THING!!!
Goes to show.. even with Monday being a holiday.. IT IS STILL a Monday..
So it is Labor Day, Septemeber 2nd, 2013.
In the last several months, due to some health issues and concentrating on some much needed BIGGER issues, I have gained 25 pounds. On the 27th of this month, my sweetheart and I are headed to the Cayman Islands to a condo 100 feet from the ocean for some much needed Sun and relaxation!!
The past year has been one for a lot of growth and self reflection. As I have mentioned in previous posts, I began a journey into recovery from alcoholism, which has required a lot of intense work and has required looking inward. Removing alcohol from the equation appears to have been the simplest step. You see, I thought that merely removing the bottle would free me, and my life would become different, you know, all rosy and such.. Um.. It has, and it hasn't.
I have learned so much, and with that has come a lot of pain, and disappointment and loss. It has also provided many, many miracles.. Sometimes it can be hard to find the miracles, and I am grateful for a teacher who has walked a path similar to mine to help guide me when the cuts, scrapes, bumps and bruises have seemed overwhelming and unbearable. She has stuck with me when I have fallen and helped pick me back up and most importantly has shown me how to find the gift in the problem. It seems that most of the time the problem is me, and my insane way of thinking. As long as I remain teachable and willing to do something different, I can usually find the miracle in the solution.
One of my favorite quotes is one that I heard while watching a movie with a dear friend I lost 3 weeks ago today from this horrible disease. It was from the movie "The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel", I highly recommend it's viewing, for it has a lot of really great nuggets of wisdom. The quote is " Everything will be okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not the end."
So, it seems many things do not end, and that includes this journey of health and wellness, not just mentally but physically as well.
So, after looking at where and how I had slid in my health goals, I made a new plan.
It is simple really.
Eat well, exercise, and be grateful.
So yesterday, Paul and I went to Costco and Walmart and armed ourselves with healthy food, and came home and weighed and portioned everything out and IT WAS FUN!! I created mini meals that were as close to 225 calories as I could muster, and the goal is to eat every 2 and a half to 3 hours. he gets more food than I do, which I am sure at some point will chafe my voluptuous hind quarters... Eh, that's what he gets for being a man and 7 solid inches taller than me..
I had forgotten how much work, getting back into the habit is, and tried to keep my focus on the fact it gets easier as you DO the habit and the rewards are monumental!! So today, I will cook for the week, which is no chore since I love to cook and often find myself in a state of Zen while doing it.
So today I will look for joy in making preparations for being healthier. I will not curse the gym time, but view it as an old friend I have been missing, and will refer back to this blog entry when my mind is not cooperating with my new found resolve.. Because, let's be honest, that is going to happen!!