I posted an avatar on my Sparkpage a week or so ago.
I am not keen on posting pictures of myself online, because I do have concerns about privacy. I know that everything you post on the Internet is there forever. And that whatever we post here on SP is available for anyone to see.
Some things I tell no one. One of those things is my weight, which is between me and my doctors.
Some of my posts are quite revealing and not the kind of things that I would say to friends or strangers. More what I would say in a group who appreciates that what is said in the group stays in the group. But of course it is a very big group, and I have no idea who is lurking, reading my posts without commenting, just checking me out, whether with ill intent or not. (Hi there, lurkers!)
Privacy is a plastic thing and we are working out new notions of privacy these days.
The anonymity of the internet is quite beguiling. And I prefer to protect my privacy and anonymity as much as I can without preventing me from accessing the benefits of this amazing space.
...Anyway, what brought me to this preamble was that since I have posted that avatar, I find it rather motivating. When I go to my page, I see my shape now and what I would like it to be, and it is great to remind myself of my aspiration. And I get to look at my shape now, having been through quite a rapid and substantial weight reduction period, and it helps me to come to grips with the change I have already made.
I've posted before on the lag in the reality gap between how I look now, and my self image. I am spending more time looking at myself in the full length mirror to get to grips with my slimmer self before I drop the next five or ten kilos. And I am going to take the next stages slowly so I can incorporate my new self image.
Dear Sparkers, I know that some of you reading this are horrified and in despair to find that you weigh what I now weigh, to my delight! I certainly was, on my way up past this weight. Now, I like what I see in the mirror, which is a bit baggier than my avatar. And I like to see my avatar.
Hi there, Fifi! Looking GOOD!