Sunday, September 01, 2013
It's been almost five months since I've eaten sweets or desserts. More amazingly, I no longer want them.
I work in an environment in which treats are provided by coworkers if not daily, then at least a couple of times of week. Before abstaining, cravings for these treats interfered with my concentration and consumed my thoughts. In effect, the treats called to me all day long.
The dialog in my head BEFORE: Oh look. Cookies! But I'm not going to have one. (Pause.) You know you want one. Come on...just have one. You know you want it. Eat one...eat one...EAT ONE! Just one. You know you want one.
Of course, I couldn't ignore the cravings for a full 10-hour shift and would have one. And then another. And another.
The dialog in my head NOW: Oh look. Cookies. Do you want one? No (WOW!), no I don't want one.
Three seconds later, I've forgotten they are even sitting on the counter. Life for me is so much easier when my thoughts aren't constantly consumed by cravings. It is a tremendous incentive for me to continue abstaining from sweets and treats.
I know there continues to be a great debate about whether or not people should eliminate certain categories of food from their food repertoire, but for some of us whose thoughts and cravings for those foods interfere with daily activities, I think it is a necessity.
It wasn't easy getting to where I am now. The first two weeks were awful. But after that, it seemed to get easier every day. When I think about dessert now, I know that it would taste good (even great), but I truly don't want it. So I don't have it. It is not worth the risk of awakening the cravings I've put to rest. Fortunately, sweets and desserts don't provide essential nutrients, so I'm not risking my health. If anything, I'm emotionally (as well as physically) healthier than I've ever been.
I've tried to eliminate sweets in the past. I thought I could have a dessert once a month and be OK. Once a month turned into once a week, which turned into once a day, which turned into cravings after each meal and all day long.
For some of us, just one bite DOES matter.