Friday, August 30, 2013
Last journal prompt for this round!
It was a good 15 days - at first I was disappointed because I didn't lose any weight, but I realized that the challenge wasn't about losing weight for me. I had thought it would be, but it wasn't. It was about providing insight into why I haven't achieved my goals, deciding to take a new route to a healthy lifestyle, and getting some clutter out of my house! I'm really proud of the clutter I've gotten rid of, and I smile every time I look in my organized closet!
My biggest moment was realizing how black and white my thinking has been the last few years. Before the challenge, I firmly believed that I could either enjoy eating and drinking, or I could lose weight, but not both. Now I'm working on doing both. I've reframed my thinking about exercise. I've actually caught myself using "should" statements, and reframed them. I've been kinder to myself. I've learned about intuitive eating, and have started trying it out; it is much more of a positive way of being healthy, and I hope I don't ever need to go back to micro-managing my calories!
How am I going to keep moving forward? I signed up for the next round of the challenge, and my goals are to live a balanced life and keep being positive. I am going to continue checking in with this group, supporting others and asking for support when I need it. If I stick with it, I know I can shed the 20lbs I gained since moving here, and get back on track to my goal weight. I NEED to do this. I can feel my body aging. I'm starting to see that if I don't get my body in better shape, I'm going to have a very difficult time getting older. This has got to happen, and it will happen.