Friday, August 30, 2013
This last week I began school and my new field placement. I will admit I was pretty nervous about beginning school again because I don't feel as though I have the skills to be a masters level social worker. I can't exactly think of what it is that I am lacking, but overall I don't feel like I am hitting all of the bars necessary. I realize I feel this way before I begin any class and that overall I am extremely hard on myself overall. I am the kind of person who has a hard time not being hard on myself, never really stopping to smell the flowers.
School is not the only part of my life I am hard on myself. I pick apart my appearance regularly and also pick apart how I look in my clothing and my weight. Recently I have gained about 8 lbs and can attribute it to being my lifestyle, but also being a perefectionist when it comes to my diet and fitness regiment.
The month of August I decided to that I would commit to one plan and commited to: the Skinny Rules workout dvds, body rock workouts, Sweaty Betties wods, Livefit, and Jillian Michael's dvds. I have been pretty on the ball working out 4-5 times weekly for 10-15 minutes at a time. I have been on this quest to figure out what the "best" workout and "best" diet entails, hoping that I can crack some secret code that only skinny people know (I say this jokingly:).
My friend Jodi asked me to do the Bob Harper Jumpstart to Skinny Plan begining this Monday (800 calories of food, 1 hour daily cardio, 15 minutes circuits, and low carb). My initial reaction was that I would do it, knowing full well that this plan would not work for my body. I decided after speaking to Diane (DMA15) I would focus on just being consistent and increasing the duration of my workouts. All of these plans are effective and following something will be better than doing nothing.
With school I have decided to take everything one reading and assignment at a time, rather than putting the proverbial cart before the horse. In the grand scheme of things, I will be done graduate school in 10 months and need to be more confident in my skills.
In the last year, I:
1) became comfortable conducting an intake
2) learned how to write up an assessment report and treatment plan (still am learning!)
3) Became proficient at completing all of my readings in a timely manor
4) Am comfortable planning out sessions with clients.
Overall I see all of these strengths, but am still seeing what I want to work on, which is something I need to really work on. Trust that doing any work will make me a better masters level social worker and therapist.