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Sometimes You Just Have to Push Through

Friday, August 30, 2013

Well, it has been an unbelievably busy week! It was the kids 1st week of school, and so far, so good! College kids are settled in to their classes, Itty Bitty has adjusted well to being without her BFF, and I have survived the first week with all the kids back at my Middle School! I have made and distributed over 800 Student id's, moved and distributed over 2000 textbooks, and trained over 20 office aides! I am exhausted!!!

On top of that, I kept up with my diet and exercise program. I am up to 3 sets of 12 minute runs with a 1 minute walk between each set. I have never done this in my entire life! Ever! I am still really slow, but I am doing it! I am also in my last week of my kettlebell training and it is going well, too.

Yesterday, however, I realized that my body was telling me that I needed to take a break from the strict training program that I have been on for a few days, so I will not be doing my regular workout this weekend. I am just plain worn out! Like, beyond exhausted! My muscles were aching so much this week that I wasn't even able to get comfortable enough to sleep well. My back is sore from distributing all those books and my legs are aching from all of the running that they are not used to. I think I just need a few days off to rest up and give my muscles a chance to repair themselves. I will start back on my regular program and repeat this week's training on Monday if I am feeling better by then.

As far as my weight loss goes, I am really feeling discouraged. I looked back and found out that I weighed the exact same thing today that I did 2 months ago...181.5. That is the longest plateau that I have been on since I started. I have been bobbing back and forth between 178 and 184 for 2 months now, losing and gaining the same weight over and over again! I stay on track for 5 or 6 days and lose a few pounds, only to go off track and gain it all back in one day! It is so frustrating! I told Gailann this morning that I am just worn out. I am tired of fighting and tired of struggling. I am tired of this journey being so hard. I just want to be able to relax and not worry about food or exercise for a change.

I know what I would tell y'all if you were saying these things. "Keep pushing. You've come too far to give up now. This feeling will pass. You're not doing this for the scale, you are doing it for your health." etc. etc. etc.....

It's easy to stay on track when things are going well and you're losing. The tough part is when you stall for weeks (or months) at a time. Sometimes you just have to keep pushing through.

So, that's what I'll do. I'll keep trying and keep pushing and keep doing the best that I can, knowing that it's not going to be easy, and I'm not going to perfect. I have to, because I never want to go back to where I was 65 pounds ago! Surely, I can't stay stuck forever, can I??? Well, even if I do, 181 is so much better for me than 245 was.

If you're still reading this, thank you for sticking with me through my whine-fest! Maybe talking about it will help me push past this low place that I have found myself in! I really missed y'all this week and hope that I can catch up with everyone's blogs over the weekend! Maybe that will help me find my spark again

Now, I am going to go light some candles and take a nice, long, luxurious bubble bath. Then, I am going to go snuggle up in my bed and find one of my favorite old movies to watch. This weekend is going to be about relaxing and renewing my spirit. DH is taking the family to a football game in College Station tomorrow (yep, he's an Aggie!), so I am going to have the whole house to myself! Can't remember the last time I was by myself in my own house!

I feel better already, just talking this through with all of you! Thank you for being such faithful friends and supporting me through all my ups and downs! I know I will get through this one as well, because I have my secret weapon...YOU!!!

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Oops, almost is IB's back to school picture!
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    I hear ya. I'm in the same spot.
    1601 days ago
    Back to school can be exhausting all by itself! Every year, I was always surprised how tired I was the whole first week - not mentally tired, just plain ole BODY tired. I think you're absolutely on target to listen to your body and ease up a bit.

    As for feeling tired of the grind, I totally hear you. But while I was reading your thoughts, I wondered whether this isn't a lot like marriage - how the important thing is how we handle the rough spots, and stay the course.

    Since I'm reading this days after you wrote it, your long weekend is nearly over, and I hope you feel more relaxed and rejuvenated. It'll be okay. We just have to keep plunking down one foot in front of the other. The good choices add up, we know they do, even though it sometimes feels hard to keep making them. You're here for a reason, dear friend, doing this for yourself and that Temple He's given you, as well as for your family ... and whoever else who's watching that you don't even know.

    It'll be okay. Rest. Relax. Reflect. And then get back on the horse. :)
    1603 days ago
    I am glad that you are taking some time to recoup this weekend! I am certain that your body is thanking you for that!!
    Your workout schedule is very aggressive, and I don't know what your weight loss goal per week is, but maybe you could try setting it a bit lower. Maybe you could break your plateau aiming for just a pound or even .5 lb for a while and then up your goal again once you start making consistent progress...

    Plateau or no plateau, you are an AMAZING and INSPIRING and BEAUTIFUL friend!! emoticon
    1604 days ago
  • MRSP90X
    StrongDJ made a very good point about measurements. We get so focused on the scale, but measurements become even more important sometimes. You are right about one thing, that no matter where we end up on the scale, it is definitely better than the starting point!! Stress (whether good or bad) can effect things, so a good relaxing and refreshing weekend it just what you need.
    1605 days ago
    IB is beyond adorable - just like her Mom!

    I'm so glad to hear that you're listening to your body and giving it a rest. Rest time is when your body does its repairs and builds the new muscle. Something to think about, though, is to maybe give it some extra protein for a bit to help it build the muscles...

    I don't know if you've considered it, but you might want to increase your calorie range up to maintenance for a few days or a week, make sure that a goodly portion of those extra calories are protein, and see whether that helps your body recover.

    I'd hate to see all that hard work with the kettlebells not show as much of a result because you're in too large of a calorie deficit!

    Strong and relaxing thoughts to you this long weekend!
    1605 days ago
    Itty bitty looks so cute. I am glad she is adjusting to being without her friend.

    Good for you for resting. I remember what preparing for school and the first week was like. It is exhausting physically and emotionally. You may be surprised by a weight loss as you rest and recover.

    Pamper yourself! Hugs, Laurel emoticon
    1605 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/31/2013 10:00:54 AM
    I just thought of something else...
    Do your clothes fit the same or different?
    Have you taken measurements?

    The answers to those questions may cause you to think differently about your plateau.
    1605 days ago
  • KANOE10
    That is a cute picture. I started school also and iike you ended up exhausted. You had a very busy week. The first month of school is absolute madness.

    I think you are wise to relax this long weekend.

    Good for you staying on track with your exercise and your eating.

    Plateaus are so frustrating..but they will break eventually. I like your keep pushing attitude..You can do it. Hang in there.

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    1605 days ago
    She's a girly girl emoticon

    First off, emoticon job keeping up your work outs & running plan !

    I don't think people can appreciate how hard it is to balance family, work & living a healthy lifestyle unless they have to do it, so
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    I think you needed that blog to get all those feelings out & you spoke your own wisdom.
    You hae lost 65lbs. !!!! So even if you didn't lose another(which you will)You ARE way ahead of where you were.Go back & read your NSV blog you posted recently.WOW! That's progress. Also, every step you run ,every swing of that bell,every good meal is strengthening your heart & keeping you around all the longer for that beautiful family of yours. The pounds will come off again, but know that you are making a change in your body everyday you live healthy.

    I'm so glad you are relaxing when your body says to, also! emoticon emoticon
    1606 days ago
  • STAY39
    I am glad you are listening to your body! A rest weekend sounds like a good plan. You have been working so hard! Very impressive! And the fact that you will have the house to yourself makes me so jealous! Enjoy every moment! emoticon

    As far as your stall goes- I know it stinks but I think this was bound to happen at some point. I have been so amazed by your seeming smooth downward trend. And by that I mean you have steadily lost weight since you started without many major bumps or plateaus. I know you've worked darn hard for those 65 pounds and maybe your body just needs to rest here for a bit. I know you obviously have a goal you want to (and will) reach but for now focus on maintaining this weight. Like you said you are so much happier and healthier than you were before your journey. Focus on your 5k training and keep tracking. Your body will give in and be ready to move on soon! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

    P.S. love the pic! She is a doll!
    1606 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/31/2013 1:37:26 AM
  • NHES220
    Love IB's back to school picture, what a cutie! Just remember, speed does not matter right now, that will come with time - just be patient. You are doing great! One great blog I read today was Step-knee where she had a conversation with her old self, certainly put things in perspective. Have an awesome weekend with your family! We are taking the great nieces and nephews to a Renaissance Faire on Sunday - hope the weather cooperates. They range in age from 11 to 5 and there are 5 of them - should be a great time.

    1606 days ago
    1. Rest and recovery are a necessary part of this journey--when you need a break after all that hard work, it is good to take the break.

    2. You are probably building muscle, which weighs more than fat, with the kettlebell training.

    3. Love the back to school photo (I just love those--especially fun to compare year to year).

    4. You're doing great--still training with your hectic work schedule.

    5. YOU ARE AWESOME! Don't you forget it.
    1606 days ago
    First off, ADORABLE pic of IB :)

    The way you are feeling is understandable. Sometimes you hit a wall and it's terribly frustrating.

    I know you'll do what you need to do for yourself. I just send a big virtual hug. I still think you are doing WONDERFULLY!!! Take care of yourself, woman and enjoy your weekend.
    1606 days ago
    Well I think one of the hardest things is maintaining and you are doing that right now. Keep pushing and I am sure you will push through.

    Article today I just ready was on listening to your body's signs that you overdid it. You have those signs and are listening and doing the right thing - giving it a rest. Good listener!
    1606 days ago
    Plateaus are a drag! I've been on several now. Like you said, just keep pushing through. You'll eventually get to the other side.

    Rest is very important. When your muscles are sore for days at a time like that, it means you need to rest. A hot bath will certainly do you good.

    IB is so adorable. I love her outfit & that rad backpack. emoticon

    1606 days ago
    Well, you gave yourself the pep talk that I would have given you. I am so happy that you were able to keep pushing and keep your eating in check during such a stressful week. It does sound like you need a break, but I agree with Michelle. Please don't allow yourself to break more than the weekend. Once the wheel stops turning it is hard to get it going again. 65 pounds is so awesome, but you are very close to your goal. Don't give up. Enjoy your weekend.
    1606 days ago
  • KML410
    emoticon that back pack is bigger than your daughter! Congratulations for sticking to your diet and exercise program during this hectic week, Just reading about it I got tired emoticon . Now don't you dare get discouraged about your weight! You are doing great and I know your feel healthier, I can hear it when I read your post. 65lbs is amazing and you will push through this you are strong and determined. Nothing is going to stop you this time. On a personal note I love to read your post. You inspire me to push on and because of you and some others on Spark I am also succeeding. Enjoy you wonderful weekend the rest may just be the thing to get you over the plateau. Wishing you all the best emoticon
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    1606 days ago
    You are doing everything you need to do. I'm sure that you will break though the plateau very soon. Keep pushing yourself forward. Sometimes obstacles are placed in our path to test us .. to see if we have what it takes to continue, and yes we do. Focus of what you have accomplished so far. You can do it.

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    1606 days ago
    Enjoy your bubble bath and your movie and having the house to yourself (that's always awesome! don't you dare start cleaning when you're alone!!) And enjoy your rest - you surely need it and you most certainly deserve it. Think of professional athletes - they all take time off. Your attitude is terrific and You are doing a fantastic job!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1606 days ago
  • TIGER_LILY_613
    Hi Dachelle. What a busy week you've had ! I definitely think a weekend of well-deserved rest is an excellent idea.

    Sorry to hear that you're going through a plateau. I really hope that it breaks soon.
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    I'm SO impressed by the fact that you've lost 65 lbs already. That's amazing !
    1606 days ago
  • MSHEL7
    That's an awfully big backpack for such an itty bitty girl. Very pretty though.
    You will move on, plateaus can last a long time, 2 months is not so bad, just don't gain. Eventually your body will decided that you are not giving in and it will have to. Be proud of what you have done so far, you have lost 65 pounds, that is monumental to me. I just love that you have done that well. Look at how strong you are-look at the fact that you are running and lifting. Those are great feats. Don't take a break and don't relax more than the weekend, just get back up and get moving on Monday. Your a Rock Star!!
    1606 days ago
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