Facing the music
Thursday, August 29, 2013
I've been away for awhile. Again. In the last year, I have undone all the good work I did two years ago. I got lazy and started to eat anything I wanted, and lately have even been bingeing on sugar and carbs and I am feeling like I am getting way out of control like I used to be several years ago.
In the last year, I have been in a new relationship with a partner who has moved in with me, and being so in love has made us a little careless. My partner loves me just how I am, so I got lazy about my food. It has been hard to say no, because she likes to do things that make me happy, so quite often, there is ice cream in the freezer (my greatest weakness). My partner is trans-gendered, male to female and has been dealing with separation and divorce, and although we are very happy together, she has been drinking alcohol every day for a few years now to try to deal with the depression. Since I am divorced, I understand the emotional process, so I haven't been critical of the drinking, although I have been honest about how I feel about it. (not real happy)
About two months ago, I had an appointment with a new Primary Care Physician where we talked about me getting back into control with my eating and exercise. I felt pretty inspired, but I guess I just didn't get back to work. My two-month follow-up with labs was Monday, Considering that I had gained about 15 pounds, I wasn't exactly looking forward to facing the music. Most of my bloodwork came out okay, but my triglycerides jumped from 91 to 353! That is what happens when you choose to eat a pint of Ben & Jerry's pretty much every night for months. (sigh)
Okay, so no more B&J for awhile.
It has been a real adjustment the last year for us, learning how to live with each other and all, and we both have our faults, but we have decided to tackle our major health issues together. So, I have been getting back into exercising for a few days, and today I started tracking my food again. As we speak, she is detoxing with medical supervision and hoping to be off the alcohol entirely in a few days.
So far, so good. I am so proud of her for dealing with the alcoholism, and I feel good treating myself better too. Together, we are making an investment in our future and supporting each other through it. Last time I did it by myself and was pretty successful, but I think this time will be even better.