Thursday, August 29, 2013
Since a couple of days before I left Australia, I have been combating some pretty intense anxiety. You all don't know me but I have always been a bit of a worrier. My Mom says that my elementary school report cards often said things like, "Alison worries too much." As an adult, I have learned some strategies over the years to help me deal with my anxiety, fear and worry. These include: prayer, meditation, writing a journal, going for a walk, etc. I have had varying degrees of success with these strategies. But, the level of anxiety and fear that I have been experiencing lately is over the top and seems to be resistant to my usual ways of controlling it. I have a strong sense that something is or will be wrong. I feel afraid. I feel a little nauseated and dizzy. I have read enough over the years to know that what I am experiencing is classic anxiety probably as a result of hormonal imbalance (menopause) and stress (travel, life changes). I also know that what I experience is nothing compared to what many people live with all of the time but it is still disconcerting, wearying, and disturbing. Maybe, when I get back home to Arkansas and my life settles down a bit, things will get back to normal. In the meantime, I would be happy to hear anyone's thoughts.
Thanks for listening.