Thursday, August 29, 2013
Sometimes my inner defeatist gets the best of me and I’m convinced I’ll never get to a healthy weight. Right now, my inner defeatist the loudest voice in my head.
The day after I finished the Dr. Oz cleanse, I was down 7 lbs. The next day, 5 of those were back, and they haven’t budged. I’ve been staring at the same number on the scale for weeks, minus the loss from the cleanse.
I’ve been working out, hard, daily. With Max in school I can devote more time to the gym and I’ve been trying to things to knock my body out of it’s rut. I’m getting more than the daily recommended amount of exercise. I’m doing some light weight lifting too to help with toning.
It’s my food. It’s always my food. I start the morning with good intentions. I have a healthy green smoothie and I put it in my tracker. I usually track my lunch. Then it goes downhill from there.
Now that I stay at home, I’m surrounded by more temptation. There’s always a treat for Max or Brett in the kitchen. Last week it’s been fudge and jerky brought home from our recent Michigan vacation. Yesterday it was cookies that Max and I made to bring to Chicago.
I know what to do. Chew gum. Wait 10 minutes to make sure I really want it. Find something else to occupy myself. Do I do it? No. I feel like I have a mental block. Like I don’t want to lose band enough. What is scaring me about this process? Do I not want to give up the foods I love? Do I not want my entire life to revolve around my diet plans? I don’t know. I’m just rambling in hopes that I can find some breakthrough in journaling.
It’s time to set some small goals to help me get going. Here is my goal for the first week of September.
1) Track ALL FOOD 4 out of 7 days.
2) Take all vitamins and probiotics 6 of 7 days.
3) Spend 30 minutes each day on Spark People
4) Take measurements. Maybe I’m losing inches but not lbs.
Also, in order to make the possibility of weight loss more tangible, I’m setting up some weight loss rewards
5 lbs- pair of shoes
10 lbs-60 min massage
15 lbs- A new purse
20 lbs- 90 min massage