Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Its been a challenging week mentally - work has really got me down. At the moment I kind of dread going. I guess I consider myself wierd but with regard to working I like the social aspect - love working in teams but it feels like where I am now everyone is at everyone's throat. Yesterday I messed up - forgot to send an important email and it almost resulted in an important shipment being turned away. Add insult to injury my phone had died overnight so no one could get ahold of me until I made it to work. After several I'm sorry - its completely my fault conversations and three people screaming at me, I was an emotional mess. Today no one is even speaking to me - my boss is out of town (only comes in two days a month now if that) and it feels like everyone wishes I would just leave.
When I got home yesterday my husband was kind enough to let me get out of the house to be by myself and shake off the irritability that had accumulated during the day - 8 mile bike ride despite the heat. Was totally worth it and probably saved my family from a meltdown (mine of course). Went to bed early with grand plans to get to work early and fresh but of course I just managed to get here on time. (Did get my 8 hours sleep though yay!)
Today I feel like I'm just trying to survive work so I can go home and get away from all this stress and negativity. Its so bad I'm considering a complete career change (tired of the stress)...Just hoping that while I'm dealing with it the situation does not sabotage my weight loss.