Tuesday, August 27, 2013
During both rounds of the BLC 20 & 21 I gained consistently during practically the entire 12 weeks. I took a break and came back for round 22 in a different team. The team was a perfect fit for me and I have lost weight during more weigh-in's than gained, and have so far lost all but 2.8 lbs of my goal weight for this round.
I can't say in all honesty that I have given 100% of myself during this round. I am in school and I get stressed out, and I have been tires ALL THE TIME as well. I also haven't eaten as good as I know I should. I know that I would be exactly where I want to be if I did what I need to do ... but I am always looking ahead to "when I graduate" or when I'm "working and making more money" or "when I have my own home and can workout at any time without disturbing the neighbors" and any number of excuses I tend to make. I think that the issue is not that I am making excuses, but that I KNOW that I am making excuses! I have the best team captain in the whole of the BLC and I know that working with her is going to help me to push myself to my full potential ... before I graduate, and make a lot of money, and have my own house, and those myriad other excuses in my repertoire.
I am hoping to be able to be a Golden Phoenix again for the next round ... ad infinitum ... and I see myself getting more in touch with where I can be instead of sitting back and making excuses for why I can't be there right now.