Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Here it is, the dreaded unchanging scale. That sinking feeling as I realize that although I've faithfully measured, weighed and recorded all my food and kept to my calorie range, the scale is stuck at one spot.
I wouldn't be as discouraged if this happened to me after I'd already seen a big number drop. But (as usual) I seem to only lose a few pounds, and then....stasis. No change. Status quo.
No matter the diet or plan I try, this is uniformly the result for me. When I did Weight Watchers, other people would drop 5 lbs or more their first week. And I lost 1 lb. It's so very frustrating!
So, I'm struggling with trying not to feel defeated and punished. I put in the effort, I honestly tracked every single day and every single thing. I wore my pedometer and strove to increase my steps. What is going ON with me???
My body seems determined to stay at or close to whatever weight I'm at, regardless of what number that is, or making changes to my diet. How is that even possible? I mean, I understand the basic math of it all...less calories in should equal a drop in weight, right?
The one thing that I'm clinging to as I grit my teeth and soldier on is that my clothes do seem to be fitting better. More room in the waist and seat and thighs when I button my jeans. Got into a pair of capris that I couldn't zip earlier in the summer. But, still! No nice lower number on the scale!
I recall even decades ago (in high school) when I found I'd gained a few pounds and wanted to get back to my (then) goal of 120 lbs.; in order to lose anything at all, I had to eat 1,000 calories a day. No more than that or I wouldn't lose. I must have the metabolism of a snail at rest! Because in high school, I WALKED to school and back every day, a distance of at least a mile round trip, plus I was active during school running from class to class (with a 4 minute "pass" time and three floors of a spread-out school, often literally running was the only way to make it), and having gym class 2 or 3 times a week, etc. And even with all that, and being younger and having more muscle mass and less body fat....it was HARD to lose any weight.
So...help me out here, Spark friends. Give me some hope. Tell me this too will pass. I'm open to suggestions! Be the wind beneath my wings!