Monday, August 26, 2013
Made it through the weekend, but fell off the Whole 30 plan. I definitely learned from it though as I got myself pretty sick from it. I didn't even stray that much, just a piece of birthday cake and some soda and I also had a plain hamburger from McDonald's. Long story. Never again, especially with being away from home and having no Imodium on hand to calm my stomach. So back to the feel good plan of Whole 30...yes please! Tomorrow is going to be day 1..again!
It was a fairly stressful weekend for me. My husband lied to me which caused me to leave later for my parents than I intended to as I thought I had to take him somewhere but I really didn't need to he just didn't want to be alone. So I got to my parents at 1am Sunday. Went to bed. Then I got up around 8 to help my mom with a couple things and we left to go to a birthday party. Then my sister wanted to go to the mall. Got back to my parents around 8:30pm. Went to bed around 11. Slept until about 7:30am this morning then got up to head to my therapy appointment. Then headed back home for my massage and chiropractor appointment. Glad to be relaxing! Also glad I don't have to go far this next month. This trip was not enjoyable as my parents were yelling and fighting, mostly at each other.
I did end up doing self harm again last night. I just haven't been in a feel good happy place lately and things have been tough. What it seems like I need the most right now is someone I can trust in my life and be able to spend time with and talk to about what is going on so I can feel better and get better. Today was too chaotic to call the mental health center. Honestly though, I don't think they will do much before my October assessment appointment anyway.
On a more positive note, I saw my massage therapist today. I was in a down mood earlier but he cheered me up a little. He said he is challenging me to lose 7 pounds in 3 weeks if I up my exercise or a two digit number if I do it just by doing Whole 30. Oh, it's on dude!