fighting the binge monster
Monday, August 26, 2013
All through my crabby day, I stuck to my planned breakfast, lunch, and snack. Had to stop on the way home to get an ingredient for my planned dinner.
Still feeling down so now I'm feeling bingey. Just wanted to buy alllllll my trigger foods & pig out. But I've set myself up for such a great day so far!
I won't lie, some stuff that shouldn't have did make it into my grocery basket - cookie dough & pudding. But I bought portion controlled stuff (the pre portioned "break & bake" dough instead of the big tube... plus they're mini cookies, & pudding cups instead of a big batch). AND I haven't eaten anything since getting home. So far so good.
I could eat SOME snack or treat & go for the top of my calorie range rather than the bottom. But this is my rationale: if I'm "HUNGRY", I should just make & eat dinner. Not crap. And I need to deal with stress & soothe myself without junk food.
Enter one of my remaining non-food vices:
That's my movie collection. I haven't counted in a while but last count was over 450. Not including tv shows on dvd, or box sets (like aliens, Indiana Jones, Lord of the Rings, etc which we have all in box set). I've been collecting for probably over 20 years, and I'm one of those freaks who can watch a movie I liked over & over & over again.
So I just had a browse thorugh my "cupboard" and picked out some "comfort food":
Going to have some comfort & some iced tea & relax. If I get truly hungry I'll make dinner - Mr Turtle doesn't mind if I eat before he gets home sometimes.
Arrrgh. I wish I was a person who responded to stress by going "I'm stressed!" instead of feeling like I need to eat a giant box of Cheez its and a gallon of cookie dough ice cream. But whatever. I'm dealing.