Monday, August 26, 2013
OMG I can't believe I am that big or look that way. I guess many of us have that moment when we see a photograph of ourselves and realize how big we have actually gotten.
This just now happened to me. A picture from our company picnic. Holy cow I really really didn't know how big I had let me self get. I don't feel that big most times. This is not happening at good time. I ate very foolishly the last week. We took my daughter to move in at college and I ate and ate bad on top of that no gym and not much sleep. I hate to see what I look like today.
I am seriously considering doing the lap band or something I just dont know what else to do. I go for a week or two doing really well and then go back to the same old thing eating junk and drinking soda. Right this minute there is a full calorie Coke sitting here on my desk half drank. I had dry fruit loops for breakfast (can't drink milk) and peanut butter and veggie straws for lunch great huh? I know my stressful time of the year is here too. We work every single day from the 3 of september through the 30th, and work late a lot of the time to. I HATE IT but its part of my job and I am happy to have a job.
I have no patience with this loosing weight thing either. I want it to happen now this week not next year or in a few months. I get discouraged and then eat oreo's or other junk then end up right back here again.
ok I guess I have ranted enough. I know it all me and I am the only one who can change it I just don't know where to begin that will make me stick with it more than a few weeks.