Monday, August 26, 2013
Just as I typed out that title, I realize that it can mean SO MANY things! We get so many chances to reset ourselves and head in the direction that we want to go. We have a fresh chance each and every morning to make good choices. You even have a chance after you make a not-so-good choice, just make the next one a great one! Forgive yourself and pull the lesson out of the experience and correct your course.
What I had started out to say is that since resetting my spark goals the day before yesterday, I have been able to make sense of my calories and keep within range.
I went a few cals over yesterday but I had not realized that my allowance was way more than it should have been due to spark setting my date for my goal weight in 2015, lol, I was wondering how I was supposed to eat over 2000 calories!
I finally figured out to change my ending date and its a much more reasonable 1,530 - 1,880...actually, it still seems a bit high, but I would rather be a little under than a lot over.
My beau and I even took a night out tonight. Actually, it was requested by my 4 year old nephew, lol! My sister and her hubby went bowling tonight and my older nephew was supposed to "be in charge". Last night, the 4 year old said "Auntie Tracy, can you and your husband go out when my mom and dad do tomorrow?" I told him yes...if his mom would let me use her car. When I got up this morning, he had already been up and asked his mom if I could use her car tonight, haha! He is VERY precocious!
We decided that we needed a night out and we ended up going out to my new favorite place, Big Bowl. We went there once before and loved it. It's a place that serves both Chinese and Thai foods. They use all fresh, organic, and as local as possible ingredients. They own their own farms and their meats are all free range/sustainable/not drugged up/etc... you can also request that they use less oil in the wok or that meat/veggies be grilled instead of fried.
The prices are very reasonable and they even suggest that the portion sizes are meant to be shared. Which is another thing that I like...a LOT of restaurants don't like or won't allow patrons to share entree's, I have found a couple that charge you an extra fee if you do share.
My beau and I shared both an appetizer and an entree, the appetizer we decided on was garlic and ginger crispy tofu and the entree was Pad See Ew...beef, broccoli, and wide noodles.
I have already looked up recipes for both, lol!
The plan was to head to the mall after that to check out the geek store and get a bit of walking in, but we got there too late and they were closing. I forgot it was Sunday and everything on the planet closes early. I did remember to set my Endomondo app in the parking lot though and we clocked an awesome .04 miles in 2 minutes with a calorie burn of 17! I got a nice message on my facebook on our going all out attempt on exercise today! Haha! The plan for tomorrow is riding my bike up to the store and getting a few things for the soup that he likes...that will give me almost 6 miles.
We decided to stop at Mariano's market on the way home...its a fantastic whole/fresh/organic food market and we each got some gelato. We both ended up getting the same flavors too, half mango and half peach. Yummo!
We spent a grand total of 32.00 for dinner, including a 25% tip for our awesome waitress, and another 6 bucks on the gelato.
Still came in low on calories for the day...I could have nailed my cals perfectly if I had eaten a real breakfast, but I woke up with a migraine and food was NOT what I wanted! Less than 40 dollars for a great evening with my beau...we even got to window shop at legoland!
I had a rough day the other day...emotionally. I am tired of being unemployed and while I know the reasons WHY I am, I am tired of hearing about them, tired of hearing about the economy, the president, the better educated applicant, the prettier applicant, blah blah blah. I am tired of sitting around but having a problem in my mind about going out without my beau. I felt like i was going out and 'having fun' without him. I don't like that he stays in all the time, but had let myself dismiss the reasons why he does. On top of being in pain 24/7 with his disability, he also had a heat stroke when he was younger and doesn't do well in extreme hot or cold weather.
Instead of keeping this in the front of my mind, I was thinking more along the lines of my first marriage. My ex was (IS) a control freak and I was never allowed to do things without him. Even though I don't associate with him at all anymore, since we have moved back to Illinois, I have seen and talked to him a couple of times when going to pick up my sons who still live with him. I guess it has unburied a few bad feelings that I had not realized were still there.
Totally unfair to my beau and totally unacceptable to me.
After a long talk with my beau, he reassured me that it was OK for me to go out walking/jogging/biking without him. He said he is totally fine playing on his computer for the little while that I am gone and is ok waiting for us to have the extra income to be able to go to the pool.
OH! and we also went by the community center today to check out the facilities, we should be able to manage the few dollars once or twice a week to use the pool/gym there until I get a job and we can just do a membership. The pool looked pretty good although with it being the weekend, there were a lot of kids there, but they have lanes reserved for laps....and there is a whirlpool or jacuzzi or whatever it is with the bubbles available for use too!
Take care and love yourself!