Sunday, August 25, 2013
The good, The bad, and The ugly........
Hold on it's all ugly when it comes to fluctuation. I still can not deal with it and I have been charting my weight for a year and a half at the least. Seems I'm only happy when it goes down even when it is actually too low for someone my size.
I would be thrilled if it would just stay at one number. Seems like when you are over weight the number has no problem at being the same day after day. But when you are in a program like us, the number has no problem creeping around your goal weight. Uhg, it is so frustrating.
I fear, I fear, I fear the dreaded Monday weigh in.
I always worry I will be higher than the previous Monday.
And as I sit here at work after a wonderful heart healthy dinner I shared with my lovely wife, I worry about the Chinese Garlic Sauce I used on my stir fry (home made no oil) and the total calorie count for the day. And my total eaten turned out to be an even 1500. As silly as it may seem to some this is what I have become.
When I see my goal weight register on the scale I freak. There was a time of course it brought great joy. Now, it means I have worked my way back up (not down) to that number. I hope that is not the case tomorrow. I'll be happy to be the same as last Monday. Really that is all I can hope for.
I guess we will see what happens when I step on in the morning.