Sunday, August 25, 2013
I just wanted to write a little update about my recovery. Since that blog, a weight has lifted and I have been able to continue avoiding my triggers and dealing with temptation, which has reared its ugly head more than once.
I have been continuing with my plans to run my first half-marathon in 4 weeks, and I am positive that I will be doing it with a fresh and clear vision and much better mental health. I have had to go to the doctor to address some ongoing health issues, but I am not going to let that stress me out. God has it in hand and so long as I lean on Him, I can face whatever the doctors figure out (after 7 vials of blood drawn and an ultrasound, I hope they figure it out). I hope to know something this Thursday, which admittedly feels very far away. I won't let dread weigh me down, though.
I made collages last night to put up around the house to remind me to be strong, what my ultimate goals are and to help me take a moment when bad urges rise up and squash them down. Writing things out is actually an amazing aid and so is exercising. Even if it is just busting out some jumping jacks, it gets me refocused and feeling stronger mentally.
I have to say thank to everyone that has offered support and comfort. It was a surprise and really touched my heart. I thank God for this unexpected support and especially for my sister, who keeps me inspired and has been there through it all. Thank you so much!!