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Ready to Make a FAST BREAK!!

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Okay so it is obvious to me that my laptop just doesn't want me to record a vlog today! I have tried several things to get the microphone to work and it just isn't happening. So...I guess I have to let my fingers do the walking and talking! lol

I am still here and I am still on the journey. I think that most days I am on a side trip or have made a stop for an unplanned vacation! lol Okay so let me spell it out...I AM OFF TRACK! Yep you heard it here first folks. Yeah I know it isn't the first time you heard that from me. It seems that just when I seem to be getting things going in the right direction, I run into a wall. I guess I hadn't planned on making my journey in a labyrinth! lol

This time I found that when I kept things under wraps, I did well. I was able to maintain my momentum and keep plugging away in the right direction. When I began telling people what I was doing or how much I had lost, then the bottom fell out.

Oh don't get me wrong, I haven't gained it all back but when you start seeing the pounds trying to creep back on, you begin to get concerned.

I had my AHA moment and that was great. It really helped me see that I didn't have to eat something just because it was there. I could make the decision to not eat it and be fine because I knew that if I really wanted it, I could have it.

Well that went well for a while and then...BAM! Yep you guessed it, I filed that AHA moment reference card in the back of the mental file cabinet (probably misfiled so it would be lost for a good long time).

Why is it that we learn all these things about ourselves and the way that we see food and then all of a sudden, it is like we never learned anything. We (I say we but I am really talking about ME) learn something and get good at using the information and then we seem to get too big for our britches and think we know it all and can do it on our own. I can't do this alone. I have to keep learning and keep the things that I learn in front of my face. I need support. I need to stop comparing myself to others. I have to stop trying to be perfect. This isn't a competition. This is MY LIFE! This is MY HEALTH! I can't play games. I can't fool around. I have to take this seriously. I have to remember that even the little changes that I make are making a difference. If I slip up today doesn't mean that I have messed up the whole thing.

I seem to get this all or nothing attitude at times and then when I don't stick to my plan, I just want to throw up my hands and run away. I don't give up but I don't get right back on track. It seems lately that it takes me a few days to get back on track or to even begin to think about getting back on track. That just makes it harder. I have always said that when you hit a bump in the road or fall into a pothole you need to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and keep moving forward. I need to remember that for myself just as much as I remember to tell that to others.

It is easy sometimes to jump in and support others and have the right things to say to help someone else get back on track but I seem to forget to do that for myself. The road has been bumpy and the ride just hasn't been smooth so I have to hold on and ride it out! I can get to my goal but it is going to take some time. It is going to take determination. Even if I have to pick myself up and dust myself off several times a day, I have to do it and keep doing it until I get to the goal!

Over this next week I am going to focus on the following things:

1. Water emoticon- I must drink 12 - 20 glasses of water a day.

Okay please don't tell me that I am drinking too much water. I am a big gal and at the weight that I am right now, I need to drink lots of water. It is also very hot here and so additional water is required. My doctor doesn't have a problem with it so you shouldn't either.

2. Tracking emoticon - I will track my food daily no matter what the outcome. Yep I am just going to focus on the task of tracking. The type and amount of food will come later. Umm little step ya'll.

3. Medications emoticon - I will take all my medications as directed every day. Yeah some of you may think that should be easy but I seem to get memory loss when it comes to taking my pills.

So I will call those my FAST BREAK goals. I will be working on them this week.

Okay so I can see by the nice little clock at the bottom of the screen that it is almost 5:30am and I haven't been to bed so I think I better head that way so...

Much Love and good night!

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CLPURNELL 8/29/2013 7:51PM

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SHELLS514 8/27/2013 11:24PM

    I can so relate to your blog in every way. But I can hear that determination and it sounds like you have a great plan to get right back on track. I'm here cheering you on! emoticon emoticon rah, rah, rah!!

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DESERTJULZ 8/26/2013 11:05PM

    Good, straight forward goals. Little steps. Little steps are the most important steps and don't ever think otherwise!

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LIVEDAILY 8/26/2013 10:39PM

    Those are good Fast Break goals Susan! Actually, those are good goals period! Why don't you write them down on a post it and put it where you can see them to remind you? That helps me. I also have to take a lot of meds and vitamins too, and I've put all of my morning meds in one case, all of my evening meds in a different case, and the vitamins live on the desk next to the computer. When I'm tallying up everything on my nutrition tracker, I can see them and it reminds me to take them! Keep at it!!

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STEFIGURL 8/26/2013 11:11AM

    Good call in coming back to SPARK and copping to the truth. We're only as sick as our secrets...and now that the dirty laundry has been aired...you can BREATHE DEEP and get back to the task at hand.
That task is not losing weight. That task is not drinking water. That task has nothing to do with how far and fast you walk every day.

THE TASK AT HAND IS SAVING YOUR LIFE, SUZY!!!

We're ALL here doing that very same thing...and we are here for you! Jump in the deep end girl...'cause life is short and time's a wastin'!!! :-)

love you! glad you figured it out!
stephi

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STEPH-KNEE 8/26/2013 5:36AM

    I'm sorry the microphone foiled your plans, I love watching your vlogs, but a written blog rocks too! :D

You and I are like twins sometimes, and this is definitely a case of that! Everything you said can be applied to me as well and I need to pull that reference card out and read it everyday until I get it right lol. emoticon

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JUMPINJULIE 8/26/2013 2:27AM

    This blog sounds like my journey lately but we can do it. emoticon

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LIZSPRINGSTEEN 8/25/2013 9:38PM

    You CAN do this!!! I believe in you. And it's great that you laid your goals out there for us!

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MERRIKATE 8/25/2013 8:50PM

    Yay, you are back and again sharing in a way that leads us all!!

I sense from your tone here that you have come to terms with the fact that setbacks like this really are a normal part of our commitment to staying healthy, 'cause we are human! Me too, slippin' for the past month until about a week ago, enough off-track to notice.

The GOOD news this time (there is usually, eventually a new and unexpected version of 'this time' popping up in my path) -- is that I didn't-didn't-DIDN'T beat myself up or get into a panic, nor hate myself nor ANY of those former counterproductive emotionally dark responses to a lapse.

By now, I 'know' from experience that it is only going to be a few days or weeks at most, provided I go easy, avoid self-criticism and jump at the first chance to step back on plan.

Wow -- what a difference from past agonizing, the kind that actually led to stress-eating and a destructive sense of failure and IMPERFECTION, and to far too long a lapse.

Thanks for modeling the smarter way here.

After all, if you/we do not achieve y/our daily goals to 'perfection,' phffffft!! Who cares? That's no biggie. From the next moment on, all is well again. Commitment is our friend but rigidity is our foe in this wise, sane, healthy lifestyle of ours.

Today -- on track; tomorrow, we will see ... this is One Day at a Time, and I can usually manage that much time well enough!!

HUGS and Thanks.
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KIPPER15 8/25/2013 8:16PM

    Glad to see you back. emoticon

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BELDONDOG1 8/25/2013 5:34PM

    So great to see you back!! However, I feel that you've been in my mind. I thought I wrote a big part of your blog! You know you are never alone. When you are speaking what's in your heart and mind, you're speaking to us--we've all been there and will probably be back there again. Keep trying hon--I know it will happen for all of us who want it badly enough! (say 'hey' to your mom for me) (hugs) Noel

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LOVINSHERRY78 8/25/2013 5:23PM

    i'm sorry you've struggled but we all have at one point. just like with many other habits the light bulb will just go on and you'll be on your way. u know i'm here and routing for you. we all understand!! hang in there :) hugs!!

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BLACK-PRINCESS 8/25/2013 4:35PM

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WALLAHALLA 8/25/2013 3:34PM

    With sports seasons starting, I need to find a new track. All those away games force us to eat out, and we have no control over what places are open and available.

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SEATTLE58 8/25/2013 3:16PM

    I'm so glad to hear from you again! I know that you have what it takes to have success and we all do if we tell ourselves we can! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SUEPERWOMAN 8/25/2013 1:20PM

 
Good girl. You're in it to win it !! I have every confidence that you will.

Love, Ginger

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COLOR-BLUE 8/25/2013 12:57PM

    We always seem to put self on the back burner, and take care of everyone else, FIRST!!! That's the type of mindset that can cause great pain and trouble.

This journey that we're on a LIFESTYLE CHANGE!!! Because of what we're doing, in our endeavor, it's changing the whole structure of our entire life. Once I finally accepted and got into my brain that this is a lifestyle change, things just started clicking and falling in order.

We need to treat this lifestyle change, as we do the Word of God. The Word says to keep it ALWAYS before our eyes. That's exactly what we need to do here. After all, the Author and Creator of the Universe, is the one or castrating our lifestyle change. If we keep this lifestyle change before our eyes, then His Word will be there, also!!!

Be blessed,

- Nancy Jean -

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1FARMER 8/25/2013 10:44AM

    I am always happy when I hear from you. We all need to be kind to ourselves but we
(myself included:) do not practice what we preach to others. Side trips are learning experiences about the need to plan...plan.. always have a backup plan. I struggle
with this daily because I have OCD and how much planning is really needed or is it my OCD:)lol. I hope this is a good week for you. emoticon Jeanne emoticon


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COCK-ROBIN 8/25/2013 9:29AM

    Glad to see you again! And you can do it!

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CARMEL_466 8/25/2013 9:16AM

    It's great to see you Susan. I can relate. Love when you said, "This is my life! This is my health!" That's going to be my mantra for the week. You know we are here for you but you have to do what you must to beat this disease. Thank you so much for sharing with us this morning. I needed to read this. Praying for you always and wishing you the best. Much love to my SOOZEEQ pal! emoticon

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