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Dealing with Stress (and SI)

Saturday, August 24, 2013

I've been wanting to write this for a few days now but just haven't felt up to it quite yet until now.

Its been 4.5 months since my injury (4/9/13). I never thought it would be such a long recovery process for me. At this point I am going to the chiropractor 3 times a week and also getting a 60 minute deep tissue massage once a week. I only had one week off of work with a couple long weekends thrown in the mix, otherwise besides a lift restriction for about a month or so when I returned to work I am pretty much on full duty.
Some days are better than others. I have days where I feel great and then days where I can't even walk without back spasms let alone bend over or lift things. But I still manage to get through work because I have to pay bills. Overall my managers are pretty nice but I don't think they realize that I am still feeling the results of the injury. I've been told my time is not fast enough when doing planograms or CISO areas or even putting away the freight every week.
I am thankful for such a caring chiropractic office and I love that they are wellness based so it focuses on so much more than just an adjustment. I can definitely see myself going to them for a long time and I happy I ended up there. Not that I am happy about the injury but just grateful to be in good hands.

It's no big secret lately that I have been stressed. Even my chiropractor knows about it and can tell when she adjusts me 3 times a week. I have been trying to do what I can to ease this stress but nothing seems to be getting any better or easier.

One of the ways I have been 'dealing' with being over stressed is self injury. I know this is sort of taboo to talk about but it is a real problem. In recent weeks I have been cutting myself as a way to release some of my feelings. There are no suicidal connections to it, but rather just a way to cope with everything going on in my life. Yes, I realize that this is a problem. I have tried to reach out for help since I began again (I was self injury free for a while, about 5 years). I called a local mental health place and they said they could get me in on October 2nd for an assessment. I hung up last week feeling devastated because that is a super long time to wait when it comes to something like dealing with self injury. I didn't feel comfortable disclosing the real issue to the intake lady as she was being snotty with me and I felt very judged while talking to her. On Monday I am going to try again to see if I can get help sooner. Not that I am in an absolutely terrible bad place right now, but because I know self injury is not normal for someone to deal with day in and day out.

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    Praying for you and a more helpful person to answer the phone. We're here for you even between rounds.
    1640 days ago
  • SHER65
    Michelle hope you have a kinder person answer your call on Monday who will try and get you the help you need sooner. Hope you will be able to find a different way to cope with your stresses. Will be praying for you. We're here for you. Hugs x
    1641 days ago
  • TAYSMOM77642
    Wow Michelle. You will be in my thoughts and prayers too. Please take care of yourself and if you need anything at all please let me know. emoticon
    1641 days ago
  • SUCCESSN2018
    I hope you're able to get the help you need hon. ((Hugs)) Here's to hoping when you call back you get a much more polite person.
    1641 days ago
  • KTLUND99
    Oh no! I hope you can get the help you need, sooner rather than later. If there's anything I (or we Geckos) can do to help you, please let me know! Please try to be gentle with yourself and take care!
    1641 days ago
  • FUNGIRL81005
    I am sorry that you are feeling pain and then to cope with the are inflicting more pain.... You are beautiful and I don't know you...but you are wonderfully made.... There is no one just like you...and that makes you one of a kind special.....You are deeply loved ...... You deserve love....Pray for the love to shine from within you....You are a diamond...
    1641 days ago
  • MARYBETH4884
    ((hugs)) you are in my prayers! Claiming a problem is a huge step in the right direction! I hope you can find somewhere to assess you as oon as possible! I know it just adds stress to your everyday stressful life!
    1641 days ago
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