Saturday, August 24, 2013
If I think back to before I started my weight loss and healthier living journey - I remember TRYING To start with walking and I COULD NOT walk for more than 10-15 minutes without getting excruciating shin splints. I had plantar fasciitis that CRIPPLED me everyday when I woke up in the morning and every time I stood up after sitting. Not only was it painful and difficult to get moving towards my goals but also incredibly embarrassing.
Somehow, someway I got motivated watching the biggest loser and bought all the cookbooks, joined weight watchers online and started tracking my foods. What an eye opener. I started making simple swaps... Coffee cream to creamo to homo milk to 1% milk (and that's where I draw the line!!). I started scrambling or poaching my formerly fried eggs. I started making lower fat and lower calorie choices and slowly I lost my first 10 lbs. i ended up leaving weight watchers online as i felt defeated with my eating - no matter how hard i tried, keeping in my points range was extremely difficult and i decided that it wasnt working for me. I was not able to be too active but was doing biggest loser challenge on my wii. I was still crippled with my plantar fasciitis and actually it was so bad i actually went to my podiatrist and said i want surgery to cut the fascia. He wasn't on board with that idea at the time, so we opted for a last attempt with orthotics. I then got sick with a stomach flu which allowed me to skip from the 280s to the 260s. That somehow was a break thru for me and I soon started to walk more On my treadmill. I was using a heart rate monitor and challenged myself... Trying to walk more or to walk faster or burn more calories. I remember starting the c25k program and my calves were burning during the 1 min interval. I didn't think I'd be able to make it thru the 1st week!!! I did and I continued on and fell off the wagon at week 4. I continued to walk thou and lost a bit more weight. I think it was around the 250lbs mark that I realized one day that I wasn't having any pain in my feet! I was so shocked that I wasn't conscious of that change right away. Since then, it's not been an issue for me and I am SO grateful!! I eventually moved back to Vancouver and got down to 228 lbs. I was so excited and so proud to have lost over 50lbs. But then winter set in, I was feeling a bit depressed, had a stressful job that had me driving most days all day which meant going thru drive thrus and eating fast food in my car while driving... I gained some weight back and struggled with fitting into my clothes and stopped being active as I was always too tired to do anything.
Before I knew it, I realized I was almost 260 lbs again!! So earlier this year I managed to get back on track with the support of the "team tangarine" girls on a Spark biggest loser challenge group. The first 10 week challenge I went from 255 lbs to 250. During the second 10 week challenge which just finished I went from 250-243! I feel solid in what I am doing right now - I'm making healthyIER lifestyle choices that I can sustain over the long term. I'm not "dieting" and restricting what and/or how much I eat but focusing on tracking it so I can be accountable for it. I am focusing on being more active - walking my dog for 5km 3-4 times a week. I also do walk/run intervals on my treadmill for 45 min or more regularly (when I'm not walking the dog outside) while watching old seasons of Biggest Loser. I started to play tennis this summer and LOVE it. I try to get out 1-2 times a week to play with friends. I signed up for 2 tennis clinics this summer (each clinic was 1.5 hours tennis 4x/week).
I notice that I take the stairs more now without thinking about it. I enjoy tennis and feel like I belong on the court. In feeling better about myself over all. I'm engaging with friends more and busying myself up with social plans. I'm dating again and being "me". I can run on treadmill and have been consistently doing 5km walk/run intervals. I realized that I actually like doing run intervals but don't like running for 1/2 hour straight - so I do what I enjoy - I do a few 5-10 min run intervals and allow myself to 'just' walk if I don't feel like running. The point is I'm doing something, and something is better than nothing.
The key for me is that I have decided to do activities I enjoy - so I can keep with them. Life's too short to spend time doing things I hate. Let's face it, if I don't like it, I'm gonna try to procrastinate or get out of it, and then I feel guilty which leads to poor self image and so the negative self talk builds momentum. Instead I just focus on what brings me enjoyment and positive feelings.
So - I am feeling better all around - physically, mentally and emotionally.