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Saturday, August 24, 2013

So I have been trying real hard for a month. Trying to be scientific about my weight loss. But I am sitting here in tears trying to stay logical. But can't I am at a loss. I have been tracking my food for so long - since 2005 - with various diets and plans. I lost 60 pounds by 2007. Then I got sick till 2010. Because of the illness iI lost 30 pounds. Was thrilled looked great. BUT I put 40 pounds back on. I started trying to take off the extra weight since 2011. NOTHING - I tracked my food again. I exercised - I even did P90X -didn't loose . My coworkers dropped sizes me nothing!. So tried INSANITY ( my kids thought maybe I wasn't exersing correctly so the monitored my workouts. Still NOTHING.
My sister than said hey lets help each other. So I joined sp. First two weeks ok. I can track food been doing it so long am tired of it. BUT hey not going to give up. Then started tracking exercise. Bought a fit bit to help. My coworkers had told me that was not eating enough so thats why I didn't loose. First week ate low end of calories and gained 2 pounds that week so I guessed they were right. So ate more. Lost 1.3 pounds. YEA ok so know I have to eat more.
This week I just didn't eat enough and gained weight. I am sooooo emotionally done. I just want to give up and say of I am going to be heavy for the rest of my life why fight it. Why when my clothes don't fit, I am eating right and exercising daily. It just doesn't make sense to continue. Maybe my body is saying - what . I am 30 -40 pounds heavier than I should be. So why????
I was so excited. My kids have all grown up so I can start doing all the things I always dreamed of. Most are physical - sailing surfing, mountain biking -sking . the list goes on. BUT need to get in shape
IS IT WORTH IT. If every other week I gain half of what i lost the week before back. If it is making me an emotional wreck.. Excited because I loose. BUT more important excited, exercising and having a blast. Unti I get on the scale the second week and then upset.
Biggest thing is don't know what I am doing wrong. Ok so didn't eat a lot. Is that really going to make me gain. D
Sorry for rant but I needed to get it out and since no ones home I need to vent my frustrations to someone.
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    I hope things are going better for you. I like being able to chat with you here as we try to be healthy together! emoticon
    1616 days ago
  • JIMINY24
    Are you also doing your measurements? Have you lost any inches? That is a better measure of your success than your weight! And it's true, if you don't get a minimum of 1200 calories your body goes into starvation mode and you CAN lose weight but it will be muscle mass first while your body works at storing fat. I can't give much more input than that but don't give up sweetie, you've worked too hard for too long! Focus on how you feel physically, that's more important than the pounds.
    1640 days ago
    You could be glucose intolerant in which case you should be on a low carb way of eating. I switched because of the glucose thing and week after week after week the weight is coming off. I also do regular boot camp exercises. You dont have your spark food tracker visible, so its hard to say...because different foods can keep you fat even though they appear harmless.
    1641 days ago
    I don't understand the science, so can't help you there. But, I do know that the scales can 'lie'. I've been in the situation where the scales tell me I'm gaining, but I ignore them. I've tried not to let it take over my thinking but just to aim at being healthy. Once I really changed my outlook things did start to change. I hope you can find the right way for you. Don't forget that muscle DOES weigh more heavily than fat. So if you are exercising like mad that might be the answer.

    1641 days ago
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