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Being single....

Friday, August 23, 2013

First off I have to say being single is something I have never wanted to be! Ever since I was a little girl my dream was to be married, emoticon have kids, emoticon and grow old with my husband. emoticon Well apparently that is not the plan that God has for me!

I have been single since memorial day weekend of 2012 and if I think on it too much it still will cause me to tear up and cry (like right now!!!) emoticon On the flip side of that I went and bought myself a couple of new shirts and for the first time in my adulthood I did not feel guilty for spending money on myself!!! Must be a breakthrough!! emoticon And I have to admit that I enjoy the freedom of being able to make my own choices about where, when and whom I go visit!! emoticon And where, how, and on what I spend my money!! emoticon

I work my arse off daily and things are going to get even busier soon (I think) as I have applied for another job (I will also work my current job and babysit my grandson still). I was thinking out loud at work the other day while reading the local paper and I said "I wonder if this place would hire me" and from the other room my boss says "Of course we would"!!! emoticon It happens to be a place that she is very involved in. It is only about 10 hours a month doing bookkeeping and would be perfect for me to gain some practical experience in the field that I went to school in and still be able to hold down a full time job. One more area that I wouldn't be able to control if I were still married as that would keep me away from home too much!

So overall I am starting to look for that silver lining of being single and broken hearted emoticon and life is moving on and the future looks brighter and brighter all of the time!!!

Have a great weekend everyone!!! emoticon
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  • SHELTIE2013
    Thanks so much for writing this blog. Sometimes we don't know what is around the corner for us. The world can at times feel so lonely but I also feel in your blog a sense of hope and optimism. Who knows the best may yet be to come! emoticon
    1653 days ago
  • LUANN7
    I can't relate to you being single because I have been married for 25 years but when you tell you story I can relate to your pain. It must be very difficult. Just remember we don't know what God has in store for us so prince charming may be just around the next corner.Hope you feel better soon
    Lu Ann
    1666 days ago
    I was where you are about 6 months ago. I had been single for over a year and was thinking God must want me to stay single for some purpose, so I kept praying for him to show me that purpose. In February I met a great guy and we have been together ever since. And this guy is everything I was hoping to find in a partner. When we met I discovered he had went through a similar breakup and he had prayed for God to lead him to the woman he was to be with. So when God is ready to put someone in your life again he will, but until then enjoy the single life and be happy with who you are!
    1666 days ago
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