Friday, August 23, 2013
Wow, I just noticed I haven't written a blog since the one about "Getting to know me" back in January. I don't want this to end up boring, just want to share basically why I haven't been on SparkPeople. I have missed my friends and the support here on SP terribly, but just couldn't face opening up my emotions and scars quite yet.
Now that I have been back on SparkPeople the last few days, I've been checking out my friends blogs and comments. I know that I am not the only one who has been going through tremendous issues! I feel badly that I haven't been around to help support any of them. We all go through extremely stressful situations at various times in our lives. It seems like our burdens are greater than we can handle! Then, somehow by the grace of God, we get through them and continue our lives, realizing that the ordeal has made us stronger.
It's strange how we learn and grow throughout the decades of our lives. We may think, at one point, we understand certain situations extremely well and come to a base conclusion. Often times we then are faced with a different situation that only shakes us to the core of that understanding. At that crossroad, we have a choice. We can either let it shake us up to an extreme that we almost fall apart, or we can stop and re-evaluate our conclusion, entering the new information into our thought process. If we allow the new experience to positively help us grow, we can only become better people, with a better understanding and more tolerance for life in general.
I guess some of this is what has been happening to me over the past months. There have been many emotional roller coasters that I have been on since this past spring...some grieving and depression involving our house fire of 50 yrs ago which I have referred to in a previous blog, my dh retiring, the move from our home of 27 yrs, and now having to deal with more grief with a dear friend being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. Had I not gone through the unexpected grieving and depression earlier in the spring, I would probably not be as likely to handle my friend's probable death in a healthy way. Does it hurt! YES!!! Does life seem fair? No!!! Will I live through this experience unscathed? No!!! But, will I continue on living and growing and dealing with people in maybe a more understanding and compassionate way, I hope so. I think that is all we can ask of ourselves under extremely challenging situations.
May we all continue to grow into more loving and compassionate people. I hope everyone has a great weekend!