Thursday, August 22, 2013
99 Bottles? Nope, I don't really drink.
99 Cents Store? Uh Uh, I am not the land of discount stuff and strangely scented air fresheners.
99 Problems? I'm not JayZ...
I'm feeling like a bit of a Paleo failure. I was really putting my eggs in one basket with this Paleo lifestyle thing. But of course, one diet lifestyle does not fit all (Bingo!).
Day 99 of my Paleo journey officially ended yesterday. Unfortunately for me, I gained at least another 5lbs this past month, bringing my total lbs gained to at least 15. Having those extra lbs come hang out with me while NOT eating sugar, soy, dairy, grains, beans, legumes, white potatoes, corn, refined stuff just seemed to baffle me in a big way. As of a couple of weeks ago, my calves down through to my feet seemed to protest loudly with major swelling and redness. I still can't see my ankles and its been almost three weeks! Hurts even more to do simple things that were already hurting to begin with due to Ethel. So yeah, my body is p!ssed off to say the least.
I kept receiving encouragement from others to stick to it, and how my body was just finding its way into healing, so I did. It made sense, but that doesn't seem to be the case at this point. Could my body really be reacting this way due to food? I found a naturopathic doctor near my home and got to see her last week. Just waiting on some blood work to see how she can help. Fingers crossed : ).
And then a sparkly pal suggested that perhaps I was p!ssed off as well, and had every right to be. Well CANNIE you were right! I guess I didn't allow myself to acknowledge that since I refused to believe that healthy food (NOT junk food) could be causing such a reaction from my body. So I thought for a moment about it. Yep, I was mad. Grrrrrr!
I capped off day 99 to end my paleo efforts with HUGE spoonfuls of Nutella that a pal brought me from her trip to Ireland a while back.
It gets even better. I planned it. Well, honestly, 99 days of eating so spanking clean, just to be even more wiggly (sorry!), seemed to bring my inner three year old smack up to the surface of my emotions. She wanted a prize for being so good for so long. So... I decided to break that paleo contract with some horribly good sugar (the horror!), and then go back to just plain old balanced food today.
I am still not to be trusted with sugar around. I know that I can't just dip one spoon (finger/chopstick/my dog Olive) in that jar again w/o inhaling it. But that is why I brought it here to work. I find that comforting for some reason, like i don't have to stress about that since it is truly out of sight.
And I refuse to feel guilty about the Nutella. Sorry, ain't happening. I don't plan on doing that again in the near future, but darn it, it was GOOD. Am I breaking the rules by saying that? Forgive me. Strangely, I slept better than I have in a very long time, even with a lightening storm turning my bedroom into the Vegas strip every 60 seconds. : )
So what have I learned on this time of living a paleo lifestyle? 99 days still proved (to myself anyway) that my sugar cravings were just not going buh-bye, no matter what author, blogger or medical professional promised. They were still there. Amazingly, they were at their worst these past few weeks (Nuts!). It also proved to me that I now know FOR SURE I can (and have) survived longer than I thought I ever would have been able to without any sugar or junk food.
Boy, if you would have asked me months ago to give up popcorn for almost 100 days I would have laughed at you (and probably thrown heavy things). I did it. Too bad it didn't seem to change my body for the better -well, at least from the outside. That was the very vain Bren speaking there. Oops! Yes, I need to work on that.