Thursday, August 22, 2013
Don't you wish those hydroxycut commercials would cut their diet pill crap and tell you the realistic way to lose weight? Those irritate me anytime a diet pill commercial comes on. Well, it's official..it took me April 1, 2013 - August 21, 2013 to lose exactly 50 pounds. It's not my first goal though...my first goal is to lose 60lbs. April to late August doesn't SEEM like a long time, but it sure felt like it. I only wish I could lose another 50 by late December, but my hopes aren't high on that.
I wish I could just...abolish my social anxiety disorder and feel comfortable enough to let the skinny people at the gym watch my fat flail in the wind. You'd think I'd just be able to suck it up, but..I can't. I hate the bad rep fat people have. That they're lazy, unmotivated, and are never gonna change. There's only one thing that seems true for me there...I feel unmotivated to exercise. I wish I had someone to do it with. My family won't with me...my best friend hates exercise. She's only 10lbs less than I am and in worse shape than I am. Blahhh. I can motivate myself to strength train usually...but cardio is the hard part. One neat thing is the nature trails at a local park called Petrifying Springs. Thing is, that place kind of creeps me out when I'm hiking there alone. LOL! Anyone else get paranoid that someone's going to kill them walking trails? (I watch too much tv - I already know).
Anyway, the important thing is, I'm not done yet. I'm not giving up on my goals. I've come this far in my journey to stop now and I know one day, it WILL be second nature. It still is hard for me. One day, it IS going to be effortless. That's what I need to work for.
Oh! I thought I'd share too...losing this 50lbs has been a great health motivator...an aide that was being trained at work to do blood pressures...I had her check mine because my blood pressure medication (yes, at 23, I know. It's a bum deal) hadn't been working the greatest. It was 130/70. I've never had my second number be that low in...I don't even know how long. I almost question whether she did it right. I noted that I have a higher BP. Then I remembered the hundreds of blood pressures I've taken over time as a medical assistant back in the day and think to myself "Well...it's really easy, you can't screw it up" Lmao! I really don't know how skilled she was though. Let's just hope it was done right and losing all that weight has paid off in more than just a size smaller pants and shirt, right?
Okay, I'm done late-night rambling! Thanks for everyone's support. I really don't think I'd be where I am without my fellow Sparkers' support, wisdom, and genuine desire to help one another.