Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Today is day 3 of my return to health......Not sure what I feel like or how I feel. I am so disappointed in myself for gaining back the weight once again... :-( I guess this is a great indication that I did NOT truly embrace the NO DIET mentality. The lifestyle change is a different way of life, I am sure that most of you have already figured this out. I thought I had it figured out but when push came to shove I stopped my DIET and went back to the eating habits of someone that fell off the diet band wagon. I do know that the freedom I was beginning to enjoy with my little grandsons has vanished in to thin air with every pound I have regained. I was holding both of them the other day and it was impossible to keep them on my lap. I have so much bulk in my mid-section that I don't have a lap. I can't play with them on the floor the way I was when I was 50 lbs lighter. I am ashamed of the fact that the returned pounds are effecting my intimate relationship with my husband. Which is a horrible thing when you only see each other 4-8 days a month. That may be to much info....sorry if it is...... This is the only place I have to share things like this because I am to embarrassed and ashamed to share any where else. I have company in town tonight so that will mean food challenges that I am not prepared to face. But I will hang on for dear life and do my best.