Wednesday, August 21, 2013
You might have seen a couple of blogs I wrote about making an appointment with a new doctor, my fear of the doctor, etc. Well, today was the day of my doctor's appointment, and I was nervous, though not nearly as nervous as I thought I would be.
I printed out a before/after picture to take to my doctor and show my progress. I also had prepped what I wanted to say - I had sleep apnea, diagnosed by my dentist, was at 268 (+/- 5 pounds due to my faulty scale), and got on Take Shape for Life to lose weight and improve my health.
I had to fill out some paperwork at the front desk and the lady there was super nice and helpful. I didn't get all the paperwork done before I was called. I was SHOCKED at not having to wait in upwards of 15 minutes for my appointment! The assistant then had me put my things in a room and asked me to step on the scale.
This was the moment of truth. I was nervous, but I slipped off my shoes and stepped on. I wasn't sure WHAT number I would see (like I said, my home scale is off by about 5 pounds), but I wasn't expecting to see a number THAT low.
I was ecstatic from that moment on! The assistant then took vitals - temperature, heart rate, blood pressure. My heart rate was higher than I expected at 83, but I was STUNNED at how low my blood pressure was. The last recorded blood pressure I had (from when I donated blood in February of 2012) was 128/78, but I am sure my real blood pressure was higher than that when I went on program in November of 2012.
Today, even with the excitement and nervousness of going to the doctor, my blood pressure was 110/68! I was thrilled! I then showed the assistant my before/after picture and her eyes bugged out. She congratulated me profusely and said she needed to get a copy of that picture to show to other patients.
After doing the strip-down and breezing gown changing, my doctor came in - again, almost no wait! And right from the beginning, she put me at ease. I showed her my picture and she was stunned. We went over my history, and I talked a bit about my weight loss, my exercise, and my plan for maintenance. I told her I wanted to lose 10 more pounds and asked if it was OK.
Her response even now makes me want to cry. She looked at the BMI chart (which she said was wonky anyway) and said that since I was only 5 pounds away and had lost so much weight already, any extra weight was just a bonus. If it would boost my self-esteem, go for it.
I truly believe I have found the doctor I want - a doctor who listens and wants to know my body and me as much as I do. A doctor who is looking at my health and not the number on the scale. A doctor who cares about me and wants to see the best for me. Instead of going on and on about my need to lose weight, we talked about ALL my health issues - my psoriasis, my vaccinations, my exercise routine, my MENTAL HEALTH (she asked about my home life, work life, if I was depressed or anxious - my previous doctor NEVER asked about that!). EVERYTHING. And she constantly congratulated me on my weight loss and focus on being healthy. I like her so much, I am going to recommend my sister switch her primary care physician to her.
I have never left the doctor's office in such good spirits. I feel empowered and on top of the world, instead of crappy because I am fat and overweight (which, technically according to the BMI chart, I am still overweight). I feel great about my body and great that I can lose these final 10 pounds, but because *I* want to, not because my doctor is strict about me getting into my BMI range.
Thank YOU, all my wonderful SparkFriends, for your encouragement and support and kind words!! It seems almost silly now that I was so worried about my doctor's appointment, but reading each one of your comments encouraging me and telling me it would be OK was like salve on a wound. You guys were so right about this visit - I just wish I hadn't been so nervous and waited so long to visit my doctor!