Wednesday, August 21, 2013
I had a terrible night's sleep, and didn't wake up on time and had to skip breakfast, but I made it to class and got through it! Then I got my new student ID so I could ride the bus and stuff.
So I went, even though I was tempted to skip the first day... I didn't listen to that little negative voice, and just pushed through it, trusting myself. To be honest, this is the first time I didn't skip my first day of classes in... years. It makes no sense, but my anxiety makes it difficult...but this time, it's different: I'm staying on top of things from the very start, and I'm not avoiding things, making excuses, or procrastinating. I'm just doing it.
Now. I am incredibly behind and have forgotten a lot of stuff, especially the writing. I need to STUDY hard... I'm doing an accelerated Japanese class, which is conducted entirely in Japanese, so forgetting how to say stuff is a major impediment to communication. I will study as much as I can these next few days and all weekend. It might be rough for a while 'til I catch up, but the stuff is already coming back to me, so I will just need to be patient and diligent. My goal is to get to the point that I am studying Japanese 4-5 hours per night Sun-Thu, and then doing the work for my literature classes (reading and writing papers) on the weekends. But, until I'm all caught up, I may end up spending 8 hours per day studying. Whew. Don't worry -- I will still find time to cook and work out :)
I think this is going to be the best thing possible for my weight loss... I worked up quite a sweat walking around campus, but it wasn't hard :) I am in pretty good shape, compared to how I was last year. I love feeling like I've earned my meals, feeling genuinely hungry before every meal. Also, being on this schedule is going to force me to walk/participate in class during the morning and afternoon, and to study in the evenings (and all of those things burn calories). It forces face-to-face contact (something I wasn't getting enough of recently), and it's going to force me to stay on a good sleep schedule. Eventually I think I can squeeze some workouts between my morning and afternoon classes, or perhaps in the evenings after dinner. I think I will make a workout schedule this weekend, once I am more caught up.
I can do this!!!!! I am doing my best -- ganbatte imasu!