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Ahhhhh, First Day!

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

I had a terrible night's sleep, and didn't wake up on time and had to skip breakfast, but I made it to class and got through it! Then I got my new student ID so I could ride the bus and stuff.

So I went, even though I was tempted to skip the first day... I didn't listen to that little negative voice, and just pushed through it, trusting myself. To be honest, this is the first time I didn't skip my first day of classes in... years. It makes no sense, but my anxiety makes it difficult...but this time, it's different: I'm staying on top of things from the very start, and I'm not avoiding things, making excuses, or procrastinating. I'm just doing it.

Now. I am incredibly behind and have forgotten a lot of stuff, especially the writing. I need to STUDY hard... I'm doing an accelerated Japanese class, which is conducted entirely in Japanese, so forgetting how to say stuff is a major impediment to communication. I will study as much as I can these next few days and all weekend. It might be rough for a while 'til I catch up, but the stuff is already coming back to me, so I will just need to be patient and diligent. My goal is to get to the point that I am studying Japanese 4-5 hours per night Sun-Thu, and then doing the work for my literature classes (reading and writing papers) on the weekends. But, until I'm all caught up, I may end up spending 8 hours per day studying. Whew. Don't worry -- I will still find time to cook and work out :)

I think this is going to be the best thing possible for my weight loss... I worked up quite a sweat walking around campus, but it wasn't hard :) I am in pretty good shape, compared to how I was last year. I love feeling like I've earned my meals, feeling genuinely hungry before every meal. Also, being on this schedule is going to force me to walk/participate in class during the morning and afternoon, and to study in the evenings (and all of those things burn calories). It forces face-to-face contact (something I wasn't getting enough of recently), and it's going to force me to stay on a good sleep schedule. Eventually I think I can squeeze some workouts between my morning and afternoon classes, or perhaps in the evenings after dinner. I think I will make a workout schedule this weekend, once I am more caught up.

I can do this!!!!! I am doing my best -- ganbatte imasu!


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
KENSHO 9/4/2013 11:44AM

    Love that graphic. Good for you Jamie. Progress!!!

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IMREITE 8/21/2013 10:39PM

    i work with people who are video game fanatics and they get excited about the difficulties with new levels. it would be interesting id we got excited about our life difficulties in the same way.

I tend to procrastinate too but sometimes i just have to look at things as a first day working on a new goal.

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MOTHEPRO 8/21/2013 10:21PM


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KIPPER15 8/21/2013 9:04PM

    emoticon Great job ignoring the inner negative voice.! You will do great! Don't for get your "me time" too! emoticon

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HARMONYAGAIN 8/21/2013 8:15PM

    I believe in you.

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LOTUSBURGER 8/21/2013 7:43PM

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TEALLEN04 8/21/2013 4:29PM

    WOW! I am impressed by your study schedule. You are an inspiration!

Gambatte ne!

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LEEWORD 8/21/2013 1:58PM

    Way to go!
Doesn't it feel better to have gone to class and been able to pat yourself on the back than having skipped, felt guilty, and gotten further behind.
I am very impressed at your facility for Japanese. I have trouble learning even Romance languages.
Continue to enjoy this wonderful semester. This is your life. Don't sit it out.
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KCSMOM9 8/21/2013 12:44PM

    I know how hard everything is with anxiety, so great job getting out the door. I also have a hard time leaving my "box" My Dr. has me on some new meds now though that have really helped. Good luck with your classes. emoticon

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TRACYDH 8/21/2013 12:35PM

    hahaha - love the meme!! sounds like a great first day, you should be proud of yourself for overcoming that anxiety - I know just how you feel!

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