Summer has been crazy. That is it, plain and simple. I have had literally little to no time on some days to get on Spark. Posting has been a challenge and is one of the requirements of the BLC. If not for that, I doubt I would have been on SP much at all. Reading blogs.... forget it! I miss being able to keep up with everyone. The kids are down to less than a week before school starts and I am thinking I may have a little bit more "me" time (WHAT'S THAT?!!!) when they do. I have enjoyed summer for the most part. It is very challenging with all four kids at home and their age spread is so great that just compacts the challenge even more. It is tough trying to switch mindset from toddler tantrums to teenage angst
I am just trying to enjoy each day for what its worth because I know that there will come a time in the very near future that I won't have all four kids under one roof as my DD is entering her sophomore year in HS. Crazy. Insanity. Trying to think about college and wrap my mind around the fact that I have a child old enough to be talking like that is a serious mind-trip!
My little guy had his 2nd birthday (!) at the end of July. That for me has been very, very hard to accept. He is growing into such a neat little man. He challenges me daily and is very independent and definitely has his own ideas about things. He has discovered tantrums which leave me overwhelmed on some days and laughing on others depending on my mood and sense of humor. He talks a lot. The doctor was simply amazed at his vocabulary for being the youngest, she says typically they see grunting and pointing in the smallest ones, but not my little guy. He talks and repeats just about everything (((including some of the things I tend to yell out when driving.... yeah, that's probably not so good...
). He is truly my little miracle. When I remember back to everything we went through in the beginning and how wonderful of a pregnancy and delivery it was with him, I feel so good he came to us.
My oldest son is in Tae Kwon Do and has recently been promoted to advanced yellow belt. I am salavating at the thought of joining the adult group. Still trying to figure out a way to make it happen, it looks like such fun. My oldest son has had a hard time with self confidence and finding his own way that it has been amazing for him. I have watched him go through hell this summer with some of the nasty kids he knows and he has held his head up high and taken it all in stride, I can't help but give a lot of the credit to him taking that class. It is helping him with all aspects of his life, not just what happens on the mat. We're looking at putting my 7 year old into it afeter he finishes up his swimming lessons. It will be an excellent place for him to expend some of his energy as he has a surplus!
As for me, I think the break from Spark has been a mixed bag. On one hand, I truly miss everyone, the blogs, the teams. But on the other hand, I have had a chance to step away a bit and figure a few things out. I have spent a lot of time in turmoil these past couple of years trying to figure out how to get to where I want to be with my goals for fitness and weight loss. I think I have locked into my groove. I am eating. A lot. I am ranging anywhere between 1800 on a low day to 2100 on a high day and cycling my calories. I feel really great. I am putting much more emphasis on healing over losing weight. Getting enough sleep (which has been stressed and challenged over these last couple of years no doubt), taking care of myself emotionally (definitely a challenge most days), learning to actually like myself (again a challenge a lot of the time), deal with stress, and just strike that balance with life. Taking care of myself on top of taking care of my family is hard. It is easy to let my stuff slide and not do things but this summer I have been good. I met up with my B/F for a pedi, coffee and lunch over the summer which is a huge undertaking and easy to put aside with everything that I have going on. I have kept very active physically. I am in the 3rd week of ChaLEAN and am trying to figure out what I am going to do post ChaLEAN. I am leaning toward Les Mills Pump becuase it looks like a freaking blast or Cathe's Xtrain. If anyone has any input on either of these, please let me know! I am really trying to make a decision. I have been a loyalist when it comes to BeachBody products because I like the way they're put together and are very sound programs, but I can't ignore the fact that Cathe has a strong following as well. I just want a solid program I can do at home. I was goign to join the gym, but at least for now, I don't see that happening...
I lost three pounds this week. I don't take a lot of stock in the scale but it is nice to see it move. I have signed back up for the next round of the BLC and look forward to the challenge. I enjoy the challenge because it is easy to work with what I am doing personally. I miss everyone and look forward to the time I have to spend a bit more time with everyone. It is very hard to believe that summer is gone. Time goes so fast anymore. I hope everyone is doing well and hope to catch back up with my groups and friends soon! Just know I am not ignoring everyone, just trying to keep my head afloat!