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Negative self image

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Today I was minding my own business. Happy that I had lost 16 pounds in the past five weeks, when I happened upon the store window front.

All of a sudden all the positives went out the window and I felt down. I felt like what good did 16 pounds do when I still look so big. All of this negative self talk took only a minute.

How fast we can bring ourselves down. I went into the store and bought only what I had planned for dinner. No junk food or things I was not supposed to have. I came home and made my sukiyaki and had my snack for the night. I stayed at 1215 calories for the day.

But, hard as I am trying to put those thoughts aside I still have that negative stirring deep inside. I wonder if it will ever go away?

I will not let it derail me. I'm sure by morning I'll be chipper again. I think I am tired and that is often when I find I am weak and eat more. But, I am mot going to eat. Just thinking....
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KINEPS 8/23/2013 6:48AM

    Diana - as the others have commented, we've all been there and we've all had those conversations. I feel like a 20 something, 110 pound girl until I see my reflection -- then it hits me like a ton of bricks ... I'm not that young or that thin. But it's okay - I'm me and that's awesome!

You are doing an amazing job staying within your calorie range and losing those pounds in a healthy manner. You didn't let the negative chatter steer you off your course - you bought what you needed and left the store. You didn't sabotage yourself that evening. My dad always said, "It went on slow - it's going to come off slow".

You are a beautiful woman - inside and out - and we all love you.

You can do this Diana ......

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MIKA016 8/21/2013 10:38AM

    Stay strong Diana, I know those feelings. I think that is the hardest part not letting the negative thoughts fill our heads. You are doing terrific! Keep up the good work and stay focus on the future! You are rocking it girl friend! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WENDYSPARKS 8/21/2013 7:17AM

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TATTER3 8/21/2013 6:36AM

    I do the same thing!!Hate it...but then I get back on track and keep going!

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PATRICIAAK 8/21/2013 4:57AM

    stay the course.
this too shall pass

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WINDSONG~ 8/21/2013 3:59AM

    I am best friends with my thoughts good and bad.
Part of losing weight comes from the inside. We have to heal the injured person that lives with us.

You had your moment but you didn't let her win you said NO to her and moved on.

She will return many times but you are in control and you will make her be quiet.

Diana, you are working on more than losing weight. You are working on the butterfly that lives inside of you just waiting to come out and truly be free and she will emerge more beautiful than a sunset or a rainbow.



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KERRYG155 8/20/2013 10:21PM

    Good job keeping to your list and your meal plan. We all have to remember that every pound does count-just pick up and try to carry 16 lbs of something around with you for an hour or so. Think of that extra as being around your organs causing them to work harder. This is something I know I need to do, too. Maybe I could stay on track that way! emoticon

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KARABEANLVRLNDA 8/20/2013 10:15PM

    I am so PROUD of you for the 16 lbs down. That is amazing. I surely would take it and feel great...as I know you do too!

Not sure if this will help or not...but...I do a real good job of beating myself up...so I can relate. As I read this, I thought about why we do this to ourselves? All the old is still within us...always will be...but how much we allow it to control us or allow it to rob us of the good thoughts and feelings about how far we have come... each time will become less ... if we stop it dead in its tracks.
I got to thinking of all the good in you. I don't see those "uglies" about you. Then I thought about all the friends you know...each one of them standing before you...each one taking turns down the line telling you what they really think of you...they would not cut you down...they would not throw stones at you...they would be more than happy to share with you all the fun times they've had with you...tell you how special you are to them...tell you all that is "GOOD" about you.
They would be kind to you...they would treat you well...so next time you get down on yourself...come before us all in your mind...take it all in and then say...YES.. to good thoughts, feelings, gestures upon yourself and cast all the rest away immediately. You are precious with so many good qualities and don't let yourself tell you otherwise!
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ALDEBARANIAN 8/20/2013 10:06PM

    Each and every time you hear that voice, repeat after me, "Shut your mouth. Go away."

If you're a Christian, turn to Jesus and say, "Look what they're trying to do to me."

A little anger is appropriate.

Repeat as often as necessary. Surprisingly effective.

To give it a humorous twist, listen to this song, two versions not cleaned up for television, one by someone I never knew made a calypso record:

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SHARON10002 8/20/2013 10:01PM

    emoticon on losing 16 pounds!!! emoticon
I've been guilty of this very thing myself. When we have so much weight to lose, we think that 16 pounds is nothing - but look at all the time and effort you put into losing it! I do also agree that you should focus on how you feel, and those NSVs that are also important. We have a very difficult time of not allowing the scale to determine how we feel or our worth.
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BARCLE 8/20/2013 9:42PM

    emoticon and well done on your excellent 16 pound loss - that's fantastic emoticon emoticon

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FROSTY99 8/20/2013 9:25PM

    I want to say shame on your for beating yourself up, but I have been there, still go there from time to time. I think once we have been overweight it is hard to get that picture out of our head. I am not focusing on the scale but on losing sizes and getting healthy. We have to love ourselves no matter what our size.
Next time you get down on yourself, just remember how far you have come-16 lbs gone and you are never going to let it return. You have just under 11 months and you will be amazing at the end of that period of time!!!
I am so happy you did not let the negative thoughts derail you. I am making better choices again just because of you-I tell myself you are eating healthy so I need to do it too!!!
Hugs
Pat

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CASTIRONLADY 8/20/2013 9:21PM

    Good job. You and I both know that eating over negative self image doesn't make it positive. You stayed the course and can be very proud. God bless. emoticon

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