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Striving for Health -- One Year of Sparking

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

THE ART OF PAINTING (De Schilderkonst)
c. 1666- 1668
oil on canvas
47 1/4 x 39 3/8 in. (120 X 100 cm.)
Kunsthistorisches Museum, Vienna

I chose Vermeer’s Art of Painting to illustrate this blog because it does a great job of reflecting how I feel as I celebrate my 1 year Spark Anniversary and some family birthdays as well.

This painting is rich in allegory but that is not what I want to talk about. The woman in the painting has not yet been painted, but she has been painted. The painting is not finished, yet it is finished. Both we observers and the artist view the woman, yet she chooses to close her eyes.

I’ve finished a year on Spark People, yet my eating for a healthy life is not finished. I continue to view it as a practice, with a new chance to practice every day. Like anything else, the more I practice eating for health the better I get at it. I desire healthy foods, fresh fruits and vegetables, whole grains, fish and chicken.

When I was joining Spark People, I told myself I wouldn’t interact with anyone else; I would just use the tracking. Most of all I wanted the exercise tracker because when I could I was walking. I wrote a couple of blogs and my fellow sparkers reached out to me. I joined some teams and have not looked back. I have met so many wonderful people who have helped me along the way. I’ve done a couple challenges, but the one that benefited me the most was the winter challenge. I did not realize I could do so much exercise in a day. I am in better shape than I have been in 20 years and if these people hadn’t invited me to join I probably would still be boring myself with a single exercise.

I’ve had a lot of changes in my life in the last year; the biggest one was retiring in October. I gave myself one year to dedicate to myself. I am not making any commitments for a year. I’ve used this time to focus on finding a way of healthy living that works for me.

I flew back to Chicago yesterday from Sao Paulo. I had to change planes in Miami and it was brutal. You have to go through immigration, go through customs (they interview everyone), pick up your luggage, drop off your luggage and go through security again. At that point you can find your gate to make your connection. I don’t want to have too much hubris, but I was able to run up and down stairs. I was able to stay patient in the lines. I was able to walk quickly to move from place to place. My luggage didn’t even feel heavy to me. Last year at this time there is no way I could’ve done all this in 2 hours. I would have had to have some help with so many things. There is no way I would’ve made the plane connection without some sort of assistance. I am so grateful that the hard work I’ve done this last year has given me more benefit than I could have imagined.

There are two “paintings” that I can show you today, one is the finished painting, where I sit a year in to this community. I have lost 45 pounds. I am probably about 33% to my goal weight. I am no longer morbidly obese. I do yoga. I walk further and further every day. I am no longer flying off the handle at every little thing. I am no longer a slave to sugar, salt and fat so I no longer have binges or night eating. I have reduced my high blood pressure by 25%. I have made a mind-body connection.

The other painting is the unfinished me. I will continue to work towards healthy goals. I had a long plateau a few weeks ago and it would have been devastating if all I was trying to do was lose weight. I have many goals as far as my good health goes. I continue to track my food and exercise every day. I measure myself, I take my blood pressure and I know how much better I feel.

The good feeling I have is truly more important to me than any kind of snack or so-caalled food treat. Those don’t really interest me anymore. Once in a while I have a 3 oz scoop of artisan gelato, handmade at a local shop. Once in a while I have a small piece of 70% dark chocolate made a factory in my area.

I have learned to give myself non-food treats. When I hit the 45 lb mark, I took an afternoon and went to a special show at the Chicago Art Institute. That feeds me better than any junk food. Oh yes, and what is a bigger treat than new clothes? A few months ago I went and was fitted for French lingerie. I think that was at 40 lbs. That underwear is a reminder every day of how much I have to look forward to as I continue to work toward good health.

This is a photo of me, my daughter and my oldest grandson taken on our trip to Sao Paulo. I am breaking through the shame that has surrounded my body for far too long.

I am proud of what I’ve accomplished, and I now understand that I am enough.

Thanks for all your support and friendship. Best wishes to you and me for continued success. If you are new to this way of life, keep practicing. You'll get it.
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    You write of your journey so very candidly and it is your story you share -- but we can all identify. I am glad to know you on these pages and what you write supports my goals and, I'm sure, the goals of others. Congratulations to you in this first year. emoticon
    1668 days ago
    Thank you for posting. Thanks for the painting. I love when you include artwork.
    Congratulations on your anniversary! Congratulations on posting a photo!!!

    I really related to your paragraph about joining SP just for the exercise tracker. I'm the same way. As you can see, i haven't even set up a SparkPage yet. I had no intention of interacting when I joined, but now I really enjoy reading your posts and being on KY team.

    I am so proud of your achievements and I enjoy interacting with you.
    "Keep Up!"
    1668 days ago
    emoticon I'm thrilled for you! Those are great feelings to possess, be very very proud! I really love how you used the painting to explain your position. It is very accurate to me too. So with that said ... Happy Spark - aversary! *cheers* emoticon to continuing this fabulous lifestyle, I'm glad you decided to join in and have fun. It wouldn't be the same without cha!! emoticon

    Have a beautiful day!

    Nikki :)

    1669 days ago
    I always look forward to interacting with you through your blogs(I love the paintings you include)
    and your support went you stop by my spark page. I excited for you in the things you have
    achieved on your journey. Spark friend you are a blessing to all of us. emoticon
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    1669 days ago
    Wow, thanks for sharing photo of you and your family. You guys looks awesome!! I love the back ground picture too. You've accomplished so much with just a year. Congratulations. I so admire your will of become better every day and your determinations. I know I need to keep on keeping on but sometime, I occasionally give in and after wards I get very disappointed to myself. I shall follow your shadow.
    Thanks for sharing this post.
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    1669 days ago
    What a great revelation. Thank you for explaining all the changes. I feel good for you!
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  • THOMS1
    emoticon Great Blog!
    1669 days ago
    You are so amazing, I can't begin to even reflect back to you all the joy, happiness, and hope you radiate outwards. I love your painting and was very inspired by your blog. That is so amazing all the travel you did... I am intending as I get healthier and lighter (83 pounds to go) emoticon emoticon , that I, too, can travel again. Thank you so much for being YOU! In Beauty & Harmony, Jackie O
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    God bless,

    1670 days ago
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