Some unrealistic thinking
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Good Morning; I have been warned that DS will have his ups and downs b/c he is bored, has ptsd and does not have a "job" - he obsesses on things. His latest is a wheel chair. Now I think it is a good idea if he uses it. He wants his dog to pull him when he goes for a walk. His dog is only 6 months old and is not trained for that yet. He has a place in our garage where he smokes and plays games on his TV that he installed.
He also has much in the garage from his apt. So we do not have room for our cars which is fine. But DH does not see him having any room to move in a wheel chair at this point. I am so busy trying to get ready for grand baby coming. DH says he has to realize that baby comes first. DS has regressed and he is not as independent as he used to be. My DH said to me today- maybe GF and baby have to come back so we can have our lives back. it is so hard - we make a plan to do things - like get his medical records, etc... DS gets in these moods and we waste a day. He had all his paperwork in his trunk of his car so it is not organized at all. this needs to get done. My PTSD counselor told me to go with the flow. If he does not want to get something done which he is in charge of - let it go. But after yesterday, he can be very hard to life with b/c he is all over the place emotionally. I did sleep well last year and I am focusing on keeping my program in place for my exercise and eating well. DS has been on the internet buying things. We have to get back to VA but making appts we have to go through DS. He has not given me power of attorney yet. He seems to hold this over our heads so everything is hard to manage. He has always been a person who likes control but he is really a control freak now which is understandable. I am trying, but it is not easy. Have a good day!!!