Monday, August 19, 2013
An hour ago, I thought I was hungry. I was also thirsty, but I was craving food like a madwoman, and I was so busy focusing on what I wanted and debating whether I should buy it that I kept forgetting to go get water.
And what did I want?
- A lime slurpee
Really, me? What are you, ten?
Yep. I totally wanted to walk into the convenience store and buy dinner like a pre-teen on allowance day. My planned dinner just didn't sound that appealing in the face of SUGAR and SALT and FAKE CHEESE!!!!! and GREEN!!
Eventually, I got up and grabbed the glass of water I needed and went back to work. Thoughts of Doritos faded a bit.
Then a few minutes ago, my stomach growled. Oh look, real hunger! Except this time, now that I'm actually hungry and my body is craving fuel instead of adolescent defiance, Doritos seem about as appealing as cardboard. That lime slurpee would feel like water tainted with sticky sugar and fake flavouring. And I never really wanted the chocolate in the first place - it was just there because chocolate always shows up. No, what my grumbling stomach wants is that nice omelette stuffed with veggies that I was originally planning to make for dinner. Instantly, with one stomach growl, the omelette went from being a meh, un-fun dinner to sounding like the most satisfying meal ever.
What a difference between brain/emotional cravings and body/stomach/fuel cravings. My body knows what it needs. It's hungry, so it wants real food. Earlier, my brain was trying to fill a different type of hunger - maybe I was bored, maybe I was in a blah mood because I'm by myself tonight. Whatever it was, it reached back to those stupid convenience store treats that at some point in my life made me feel better and told me I wanted them. Luckily, before I had a chance to give in, the actual hunger showed up to push the emotional cravings out of the way.