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What am I going to do without mom...

Monday, August 19, 2013

This song came to mind after reading my brother's latest Facebook status about my mother...

I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls close in more every day
And I'm dyin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real, even if nobody knows
And I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say
The things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumblin' down
I can see it so clearly
But you're nowhere around

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad and
I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missin' you
And nobody knows it but me

(Music, hmm...noone knows)

I carry a smile
When i'm broken in two
And i'm nobody
Without someone like you
I'm tremblin' inside
And nobody knows it but me

I Lie awake
It's a quarter past 3
I'm screamin at night
If i thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me

How blue can I get, you could ask my heart
Just like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say
Just how I feel
A million years from now you know
I'll be lovin' you still

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad and
I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

Here's my brother's face book status update on mom...

Just an update on Mom. Took her to the Dr. today and things are not going so well. They cannot continue with the feeding tube because she has severe ulcers and it can possibly poke a hole in her throat. Therefore, she has to eat or take at least 4 Ensures per day or things are not looking good. She about passed out when trying to stand to take her weight and we caught her before she fell. I would ask that her friends please write to her or send her cards (even home made are good) to just liven her spirits. Please keep her in your prayers and if you have any questions, feel free to ask because there is more I just won't type on here. Thanks.

What am I going to do if she dies?. I have not cried since really hard since my step dad's death back in 2007.

All I did after I read that mom was bad was to sit at the computer and let the tears flow.

Prayers are needed.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
FITFRIT 8/20/2013 9:47PM

    Many prayers for both of you.

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DR1939 8/20/2013 11:40AM


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ALIHIKES 8/20/2013 11:33AM

    I am praying for you and your mom. I am so sorry to hear that she is having trouble. My mom is also very sick (she is in hospice) and has lost a lot of weight. It tears me up inside to see her so frail and ill. Please know my prayers are with you emoticon

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CINDYWAGNER1 8/20/2013 5:30AM

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FISHER011 8/20/2013 2:21AM

    Lance, You and your Mom are in my prayers daily.
Be kind to yourself and dwell in the present.
Be with your Mom & make each day special.

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KATRINAKAT23 8/19/2013 11:51PM

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LJCANNON 8/19/2013 10:01PM

    emoticon Adding you and Your Mom to my Prayer List. I don't know the Details But God Does, and He will walk with you on this Journey.

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WILDKAT781 8/19/2013 9:46PM


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SEAJESS 8/19/2013 9:16PM

    Please be very, very gentle with yourself. Grief is as demanding as running a marathon. Remember to breath, stay in the present. You have enough to handle without taking on unknown burdens of the future.


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EJB2801 8/19/2013 8:43PM

    My mother went through some extremely similar experiences with a rare disease. We thought she would never eat again, but enough healing took place that she eventually did. (How satisfying to bring her freshly picked muskmelon, by the way.) We thought the same about walking, but that also happened. We had some beautiful times together, and some frustrating times with that difficult journey. I will be praying that you experience many more precious memories with your mom as well as for special people to help you this week and beyond. Thank you for the song, too.

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GINNABOOTS 8/19/2013 8:13PM

    I hope your mother recovers and starts to take in some nutrition. I will be praying for your mother and your whole family. I lost my mother on July 5th. emoticon

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DLDMIL 8/19/2013 7:18PM

    I just lost my Dad a month ago, so I know how you feel. Prayer and hugs

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COCK-ROBIN 8/19/2013 6:42PM

    My prayers go out for you and your family.

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SHEBRI123 8/19/2013 5:58PM

    Many prayers for you and your family.

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SHEENADEE 8/19/2013 5:54PM

    Sorry to hear this. Best wishes and take care.

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RAPUNZEL53 8/19/2013 5:54PM

  Hope she recovers. Your family is in my prayers.

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DIEGOGAL1 8/19/2013 5:52PM

    Will pray for you, God Bless you during this difficult time in your life. Hugs! Donna

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