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Monday, August 19, 2013

So, I need to just get this off my chest because I think if I throw it out into the universe someone will choke slam me for my insanity! LOL

I have been eating AWFUL, it started with that slip up last week and it seems every day I keep having a slip up and today was not a simple slip up, it was a full blown several counts of FOOD FELONY!

I feel like my stress level has increased with changes at work and not enough sleep at home...and of course the answere is always FOOD right?!

I haven't been to the gym in days, I keep making excuses and OMG I am mad at myself but I feel like it's just normal and this is what I do and I don't want to start down this destructive "I give up" path, but deep down I feel it coming and it makes me sad and sick, depressed even that I am once again letting FOOD win.

I even was avoiding putting in the foods I ate the last couple days because I didn't want to see the damage! But I just put them in the food tracker and OMG ya'll it's bad, its real bad. I can't believe I ate that on a daily basis. And my stomach hurts, I feel miserable AGAIN, but misery loves company and my favorite company is FOOD!

I need some serious motivational smack down! Someone please tell me to get it together and to quit letting those damn "thoughts in my head" get the best of me. I know if I just refocus I can get back on track, but I feel like if someone doesn't babysit me I am liable to reoffend and I will be in FAT KID prison forever at this rate!

Ok I feel better now that I have told ya'll I am not doing right by myself. Now to try and undo the foolishness and get back on track!
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  • SHAMROCKY2K
    Exercise will eliminate so much of the stress. Less stress means smarter eating.

    I REALLY am telling this to myself too. I've been off track. Let's NOT derail!!
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    1208 days ago
  • BOLEBRON
    You are already smacking yourself down enough. So you don't need it from the rest of you...or do you?

    Stress and lack of sleep can do a number on us. Try to make some changes and keep working out. While you are exercising, you are not eating...so exercise more and less eating. Good luck! emoticon
    1208 days ago
  • PLATINUM755
    Take this, emoticon , and take that, emoticon , you stressful thoughts!

    Sweetie, don't waste your time stressing over what has already happened...and create come flexibility in your plan, find workouts that you can do at home as well. There's tons of free videos on SP or if you have access to any of these, you can find workouts too, i.e., HULU, YOUTUBE, Netflix and don't forget your public library.

    Keep pushing... emoticon
    1208 days ago
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