Monday, August 19, 2013
So, I need to just get this off my chest because I think if I throw it out into the universe someone will choke slam me for my insanity! LOL
I have been eating AWFUL, it started with that slip up last week and it seems every day I keep having a slip up and today was not a simple slip up, it was a full blown several counts of FOOD FELONY!
I feel like my stress level has increased with changes at work and not enough sleep at home...and of course the answere is always FOOD right?!
I haven't been to the gym in days, I keep making excuses and OMG I am mad at myself but I feel like it's just normal and this is what I do and I don't want to start down this destructive "I give up" path, but deep down I feel it coming and it makes me sad and sick, depressed even that I am once again letting FOOD win.
I even was avoiding putting in the foods I ate the last couple days because I didn't want to see the damage! But I just put them in the food tracker and OMG ya'll it's bad, its real bad. I can't believe I ate that on a daily basis. And my stomach hurts, I feel miserable AGAIN, but misery loves company and my favorite company is FOOD!
I need some serious motivational smack down! Someone please tell me to get it together and to quit letting those damn "thoughts in my head" get the best of me. I know if I just refocus I can get back on track, but I feel like if someone doesn't babysit me I am liable to reoffend and I will be in FAT KID prison forever at this rate!
Ok I feel better now that I have told ya'll I am not doing right by myself. Now to try and undo the foolishness and get back on track!