I've been pretty patient with myself for the past 2.5 years getting through all these life transitions, but I've kind of come to the end of my patience.
I know, though, that suddenly forcing myself to make a bunch of radical changes after something like this, isn't going to work out in the long run.
So I decided what my priorities are, and I made a bit of a plan (understatement). The plan involves making changes in other areas of my life, slowly and steadily. And it also involves a solid re-focus on my health...slowly and steadily so the changes stick.
Last week, I signed up for the Distance Challenge. It's 6 races between October and February. There are different tracks you can do. In 2010-2011, I did the Marathon track. Last year, I did the half marathon track. This year? I'm going to try for the Marathon track again.
I had about 27 weeks before the marathon when I signed up for the challenge. I downloaded a marathon training schedule that takes up the last 16 weeks ending in the marathon, printed out empty monthly Google calendars, and wrote it all in there.
The person I've been for the past 2.5 years would just sit on my a$$ until that 16 weeks started. Then she'd make a half hearted attempt at training, and ultimately blow off the training, just showing up for, and walking all the races. How do I know this? It's exactly what I did last year. Yes, I walked 3 half marathons without training for them.
But I'm putting a focus back on my health because I really DO realize it's the key to everything else I want to accomplish.
There are a few other challenges here that need attention if I'm going to succeed at this. I haven't really been working out consistently, and I CERTAINLY haven't been running. I also weigh quite a bit more than when I did it the first time. My bone density is poor, my nutrition sucks, and my sleep patterns are radically bizarre.
So I also created another training schedule for the 11 weeks before that 16 week schedule. The goal of THIS training schedule is to create the habit of showing up for my workouts every time, and to get myself from walking to running.
I started on the training schedule last week. I bought new running shoes this weekend, after my first walk/run made my feet hurt so bad I could barely walk. (2 year old shoes = bad idea!)
And I'm slowly going to add 2 components into this that I've never really consistently added before.
1) I'm going to start lifting weights. I hate lifting weights. But I have to build my bone density back up. My bones are too fragile. I'm going to sneak up on it, by setting a goal for now of doing one single weight exercise, one set, low weights, one time this week, along with one set of squats, just a few, two other times this week.
2) I'm going to do something about my nutrition besides tracking it and burning calories off to accommodate poor food choices. I'm going to do some research this week into marathon nutrition, and while I'm not likely to abide too strictly by that, I'm at least going to educate myself on it. In the past I've noticed that if I'm just reading about healthy eating, and tracking what I eat, I end up making positive changes.
I'm guessing getting my health slowly in line, combined with the other life changes I'm making, is likely going to help me with my sleep as well.
TWO POSITIVE THINGS:
1) I still have a pretty solid habit of drinking a lot of water. I'm just going to put the habit of tracking it in place again to make sure I get enough of it.
2) I've lost 5 pounds in the past few weeks already, just from showing up more than I was for my workouts and making a few other smallish changes.